I am feeling tired and disappointed!
I cannot believe I have only written one post to go up on my website after sitting at my computer from 11:30 am to 8:30 pm!
I hope everyday won't be as slow as this one though otherwise I don't think I could keep up the motivation and effort.
Everything seemed to go wrong today..... which is sometimes a sign I should have stayed in bed!
Looking for Affiliate products turned out to be full of pitfalls, writing was hard (I was lacking inspiration) plus it was hard to concentrate on my lessons and even taking notes didn't help today.
Apart from feeling somewhat okay about dedicating the day to our websites (little tweaks and tidy ups here and there) and Wealthy Affiliate lessons I feel flat and down about our progress towards a viable Online Marketing Business.
I guess this feeling could be made worse because I am tired, too busy at work ( run off my feet Monday to Friday), worried about my husband as he has been unwell and very worried about our old Labrador, Rocky, who does not have long now - probably only months or weeks.
Rocky is our four legged child. We have had him 14 years in February. DJ has looked after him extremely well hence his long life. He has always been walked every day for 45 minutes to an hour and has had only the best and healthiest diet. Rocky also went to work with us everyday and the three of us are his Pack.
It is heart wrenching watching him walk with the wobbles and struggle to get up from his bed. We don't know if we are being selfish now holding onto him because we don't really know if he is in a lot of pain or whether he is just weak with a little bit of pain.
Neither my hubby or I have been through this before, so we are not sure what to do..... so there is some anxiety mixed in.
Overall I am feeling sad about losing Rocky and I guess this will color things for me for the time being!
I didn't start this blog thinking specifically about Rocky but I am ending it thinking about all the great things we have done with him, how much a part of our lives he is and how key part of our daily routine belong to him.
I am off now to give him a big belly rub. This is Rocky playing hide and seek - he always loved being found!
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See-ya!
Kerrie
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Dear Kerrie , please know I write this not to minimize your situation or magnify another. Many of us know the pain of watching our beloved pet get worse before our eyes. For many, it's our child. I didn't have my own children but I had a lab for 17 years. I was in the service when she passed.
There's some good advice written already as far as writers block. Going for a walk has helped me, or just taking a break. We don't want your hard drive to crash.
But most of all, there's always someone else who is worse off . Again, I'm not minimizing your circumstances. I know the hurt and pain is as real as real gets.
When I see a child with cancer, I feel just give it to me, I've lived 63 years, I have a hard time seeing children suffer., well anyone, especially children. We all hate that don't we!
We will weep with you when you weep, and rejoice with you when you rejoice, and you will rejoice again.
Blessings, Jim
Hi Kerrie, hope things are a little better now. You have some lovely replies about Rocky and there is nothing I can add to them.
As far as writing posts are concerned, I find it helps to use pen and paper.
Somehow it is different, and helps when stuck. You can just write whatever comes into your head and edit later.
It is how we all learned to write, pencil and paper. You can see the physical result on the paper, sitting on the table.
Try it, I find it really good when I am stuck.
Best wishes to you all!
HI Ben, yes things a little better this morning. I will try the pen and paper idea. The other thing I am going to do when I struggle with my website is spend some time helping others here at WA - that will help I know for sure!
Glad to hear you are doing well Kerrie, my Ma always used to tell me "things will look better in the morning", if I was stressing.
She was right:)
Kerrie, you said you started your blog not specifically thinking about Rocky but it's clear that he is very much on your mind.
Take some time out, it's impossible to focus when you have so much going on and, like Glenda/teacup says, don't be hard on yourself.
Sending you a ((((((HUG))))). :)
We all have days like that. Sometimes, we have weeks and months like that, too. The good thing is that it will pass. As to your dear sweet Rocky, he will tell you when it's time. I've had many furrkids and, sadly, their lifespan is not as long as ours. I so wish it were! Our German Shepherd passed at 15 in June. Now I have four hounds, two whom are quite old. I know there isn't much time left, so I try to enjoy them while they're here. Your emotions will color your days. Obviously, you are really upset about Rocky. You love him. That's perfectly understandable. Take some deep breaths. Get away for a day if you have to. Somehow, it will all work out. It always does.
Hello Kerrie, I feel your pain. Some days are just not good productive days no matter how hard you try. It appears that you just have too much on your mind right now so please don't be hard on yourself.
We had a German Shepard who lived at least 14 years. We had to give up and put him to sleep. He could no longer get up on his own. We would lift his hindquarters and then he could stand and walk.
He would wobble around and sometimes fall down. It was heartbreaking to watch him struggle. I gave him aspirin for a while until we saw a bit of blood in his stool. He was more mobile with it.Then we had nothing we could give him. Without the aspirin he quit eating. That was how we knew for sure that he was in pain. There might be something else that your vet could give your dog that would help you keep him around a little longer.
We had a vet come out to the house to put him to sleep as we did not want his last hours to be fearful. He had one last really good day. We walked up the hill together and he just laid down and sighed. It was like he was saying that was where he wanted to stay. Later he was buried close to that spot. No human could have had a more respectful burial. I must close now as I am crying.
Do whatever you know is best. Take care and God bless you.
Glenda
The SUN is always shining above the clouds m'dear, look up ^_^
Our memories of the dear ones in our lives 'sustain us'.(-:
Be well friends. J
Hi Kerrie
Sorry to read of your disappointment at your progress, and distress about Rocky. We had a lovely old poodle who lived to 17 years, and at the end we had to use our own judgement as to the time to "set him free". He was having seizures, followed by periods of blindness, till his sight came back and then he would be OK for a while. The vet kept reassuring us he was not in pain, and to let him live on as he was still enjoying being around us. I am no expert, but I think when they become disinterested in everything, and/or cry/whine for no apparent reason, then they are obviously either in pain or feeling very ill or uncomfortable.
As regards your website, some days you will enjoy progress and others will be slow or even come to a halt. Members keep reassuring all to forge on and you will succeed despite the setbacks. Best wishes,
Katharina
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Hi Kerrie! -
Life can be hard at times.
Someone told me a very long time ago something that has alway stuck with me -- And that is - "All Things are Temporary".
I know that this statement might not help right now as you are in the widest of your situation with your 'baby'.
Don't pile to much pressure on yourself. Your end up not getting anything of value done.
Give the old boy a stoke from me!
I certainly wish DJ a speedy recovery.
I am thinking of all three of you at this time -- Stay strong !
Thank you Davy - I appreciate your comments very much.
That is GOOD - Kerrie they came from the heart!:)