I Am At My Wit's End

This might come out as a bit of rambling as I am writing my feelings and I might be judged but at this time, like in any other aspect of my life I need to be as honest as possible and I hope my honesty will serve me well.

For a very long time I have blogged about my accomplishments here at WA in an effort to encourage others but mostly to encourage myself. There were times when I needed to say it out and basically convince myself that things were happening and I would succeed. Heck....that is one of the things we say here quite regularly..."to your success"!

My problem has always been organic traffic. I have followed the training, done it as it said I should but I still get no organic traffic. Google analytic agrees and this morning I did a SEO analysis of my main website and found out that I average 3, yes 3 organic visits per month! That, I can tell you is extremely demotivating. Persons are going to tell me to wait because it will happen...When? I have been here approximately 7 months and if my website is not getting a visitor per day...at least 30 for the month then you must realize that something is drastically wrong!

Now the worst part of all this is my monthly struggle to pay the $49. Every month it has been a challenge. I have had my sites off-air twice during my time here and I am fearful that one day I will be forced to just let it all go. That would be tragic as I have invested in this. No, I can barely make ends meet so for me $49, although a measly sum for a lot of people, for me it is the difference between some extra food in the house of a little more money for my children to go to school. It could mean so many things as I struggle to stay within my means and pay for this monthly. It is a sacrifice.

I honestly have no idea where I will go from here and that's the truth! I am playing it by ear now and in Jamaica there is a Creole proverb that says;;;"Anywhere it mawga, it pops off", meaning, whenever you cannot go anymore you just let it go! I have decided to hold on as long as I can and I am thinking it might be better to sell the website rather than to lose everything.

Once I blogged of my inability to pay my fee and a member commented that he is sure I have a job and why not pay from my salary. That to me was the heights of crassness but it is best to leave some things alone. Just remember that our situations are very different. You do not know about mine if I do not choose to tell you and I certainly do not know about yours. We need to be empathetic!

One question I need to ask though. Do you have a way to check your organic traffic that I am missing?

Have a great day and I wish you all well!

Claudia