Discouraged and well, frustrated!
Well, had my surgery this past Friday to try and help with my hearing. On Monday, I had a second procedure. My doctor told me it would take a "couple of days" for me to see any improvement. Well I take that literally. Maybe I shouldn't....I know as we get "older" things seem to take a bit longer to heal, etc. etc. But today is day 3, and I have seen absolutely no improvement in my hearing, yep none what so ever. In fact, it seems a tad worse :(
So today has made me pretty depressed. Well actually the past 3 months have not been the greatest, and I stopped doing a lot of the things I love to do. Simply because I just have not felt or been myself because of hearing issues. Between the weather changes which seem to affect it greatly, and then getting swimmer's ear (middle ear infections) in both ears, it just seems that they do not want to go back to normal.
Well tonight I decided to take a different route. I went to the gym for nearly 3 hours, and I thought about swimming. Even bought me a new swim cap and ear plugs (as this is why I got swimmer's ear), all set to do my laps which I have not done in way too long. Got in the pool, put everything on and swam two laps. Only to notice that the ear plugs and cap did not keep the water out of my ear (the one that had surgery that I am not supposed to get water in), so out I went. I had still worked out, did the sauna and Jacuzzi. But, got home and I feel so much better.
Maybe it is mind over matter. I think this can be applied to working from home as well. It is a matter of what we want, what we do to get it, and the determination. Somewhere along the way, I gave that up with my stupid ears. I want and will take my life back. Whether I can hear or not, as at this point, hearing aids are out of my financial reach. I will just go on doing my best. Things can and will get better, right?