Discouraged and well, frustrated!
Well, had my surgery this past Friday to try and help with my hearing. On Monday, I had a second procedure. My doctor told me it would take a "couple of days" for me to see any improvement. Well I take that literally. Maybe I shouldn't....I know as we get "older" things seem to take a bit longer to heal, etc. etc. But today is day 3, and I have seen absolutely no improvement in my hearing, yep none what so ever. In fact, it seems a tad worse :(
So today has made me pretty depressed. Well actually the past 3 months have not been the greatest, and I stopped doing a lot of the things I love to do. Simply because I just have not felt or been myself because of hearing issues. Between the weather changes which seem to affect it greatly, and then getting swimmer's ear (middle ear infections) in both ears, it just seems that they do not want to go back to normal.
Well tonight I decided to take a different route. I went to the gym for nearly 3 hours, and I thought about swimming. Even bought me a new swim cap and ear plugs (as this is why I got swimmer's ear), all set to do my laps which I have not done in way too long. Got in the pool, put everything on and swam two laps. Only to notice that the ear plugs and cap did not keep the water out of my ear (the one that had surgery that I am not supposed to get water in), so out I went. I had still worked out, did the sauna and Jacuzzi. But, got home and I feel so much better.
Maybe it is mind over matter. I think this can be applied to working from home as well. It is a matter of what we want, what we do to get it, and the determination. Somewhere along the way, I gave that up with my stupid ears. I want and will take my life back. Whether I can hear or not, as at this point, hearing aids are out of my financial reach. I will just go on doing my best. Things can and will get better, right?
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Take heart!! Your hearing may or may not improve, but you will adapt to the situation and be able to carry on with your life. Your last paragraph is the most important as it demonstrates a great attitude, fortitude, and perseverance. I love your fight and determination. Get ready for a great day!!
As others have said, hanging in there is the way to go. Issues like this are hard to deal with, and only with determination and fortitude are they any easier to take...
I found it hard to take that my health and fitness is not what it once was. There were years when I had an injury and a couple of days later I was fine. No longer.
I used to run marathons and between do regular runs 4 x a week, minimum of 2-3 miles and weekends fun runs of 6-7 miles...No more...
The eyes are what is most bothersome to me. They were never perfect, but have continued to deteriorate as time passes by... You can compensate with glasses and resting them regularly, but still, the degradation is hard to accept and deal with...
It sounds like this is the case with your hearing. Especially as this is something that you have not had to deal with, it is hard to adjust and carve out a life as you want to have...
As you already have, over time you will create some workarounds for the loss of hearing, and be able to rebuild a life that is still full of moments that are memorable...
This is hard to do and you likely, as I did, say why should I have to do this, but somehow we do it as a survival thing I think. Do I miss the days of running and long hours with no adverse affect and having eyes that worked better? You betcha, on all counts!
I do hope that you will recover fully and be able to get back to life as you knew it prior to having the problem, but rest assured that if not, you will be able to make the best out of it...
Things can and will get better!
Cheers!
Dave : )
I will make the best of it! That is all I can do! Especially since I am not a person to dwell on the negative :)
Hang in there my friend. Sometimes life can be overwhelming, especially when there seems no end in sight. My week here has been extremely trying as well, though the more we persevere the stronger we become. Our biggest weaknesses can become the source of our greatest strengths. Be well my friend, and don't give up! :-)
Absolutely right! Good for you for sticking in there. That confidence is going to take you a long way in the right direction.
I love reading things like this because it gives me the will to go on as well with these dog gone back problems.
Thank you for writing this!!!!!!!!
Eric
I'm going to go a different route and tell you it could be worse, it can always be worse. Sometimes things don't go as planned or how we want them to but in those times you need to look at what you do have. I myself make a gratitude list and it always makes me feel better because I have a lot to be grateful for and so do you. Thank you for sharing and you are now in my prayers.
Thank you and yes, it could definitely be worse. I will take what I have been dealt and get stronger from it, and hopefully overcome it!
Yes, it will get better. I have a bracelet on that says "No mud no lotus" which I wear almost every day. (referring to the beautiful lotus that grows out of the muddy waters). Yes, hearing aids are outrageously expensive. I have one for each ear. I have had them a while but freaked out when I thought I lost them. I could never replace them. I hope you recover and your hearing returns. Be patient. Katherine
Hi Leahrae
Determination is huge when it comes to this business.
Persistence will always overcome resistance.
I hope you have a breakthrough with your hearing but it doesn't and can't affect the quality of your writing. If you hadn't told us, we would be none the wiser about your current issue - it will ultimately make your success taste that much sweeter.
Do it anyway - we are all behind you :0)
Cheers
Rod
That is great you feel better, even after you got your ear - the wrong (right?) one wet, but you had some fun!
There are many things that do not work for many of us as we get on in years (For me, I haven't been able to take a full breath for maybe two years - COPD).
I just know that my fingers (for the keyboard) work fine and my brain - well just don't ask my wife!
I'm so pleased you are feeling better, even though your hearing isn't as you would like it.
There is no doubt that getting away from the computer for a while and doing something different gives a new and positive outlook on life. It happened for me today when I went out for a while and unexpectedly meet some friends. It was wonderful and has put a different perspective on this forthcoming weekend.
Keep moving forward and things can only get better :)
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Things can certainly get better, especially if you are willing to work towards that end. I'm so sorry to hear about your ears. So many of us stop doing things we love physically because of an illness, never realizing that if we continue to be active, our bodies are better able to heal themselves or adjust to the new state of being. I have been down that road myself...WAY down that road. I am fighting my way back now and it feel terrific!
I hope you continue to feel better. I'll keep you in my prayers.
Anita
Thank you Anita, it is hard to get out of the slump...very hard!
That I know! Best of luck to you!