Since I first came here to Wealthy Affiliate, my motto has been to stay in and not give up. However as I get older, things in my life have been changing as well. I have also learnt more about myself than I have previously known or admitted.
One of these has to do with my writing and where it has gotten me to date.
There are a number of people on here who see my writing as "fantastic." Albeit I have not been able to make any new sales in the last three or more years. I put out some content during the earlier and mid parts of this year with the aid of the Super Affiliate Challenge, but from this effort, I have gotten two, possibly three invites through the entire year.
This isn't ineffectiveness of what is taught here. It is entirely on my end. I have been questioned about how my "business" has been going, for which I had nothing to say. After discussions about the viability of being involved in this, the criticism I have been unanimously getting is that I am putting money into something and at best, getting most of it back, if not, breaking even.
One time, in 2012, this almost took off for me but I have never been able to repeat that again. It is one of the reasons why I have staid in here so long. The work done thus far on my website has been deemed as, "untrustworthy." I lack the charisma needed to be able to do this work and have personality issues. This is what is making it extremely challenging for me to do this kind of work.
The hopes and dreams I had have faded away. I have gotten so I don't enjoy this anymore.
I re-iterate that at this point, I am unfit for this kind of work and this absolutely has nothing to do with Wealthy Affiliate in any way. The issues I have are outside the scope of Wealthy Affiliate.
Upon reading a letter I wrote to Wealthy Affiliate in 2008, my reasons to join were originally about the books I was writing at the time. Those books were never published and are now completely dated. They are works that will never see the light. However there is one more. This will take the rest of my life to do. It is very deep and requires a tremendous amount of research. My current website will probably be repurposed for this and the content there moved to a different domain more suitable for it.
I have tried several niches since I've been here. The only one I have made any money at has been the Wealthy Affiliate campaign. It is the one and only thing I've made money at, and together for all time, is quite significant though many here have made that or more in one or two months time to my nearly nine years here.
I have not yet given up with this, but it doesn't look good now and I have a pit in my stomach as I write this. About three months ago, I simply could not even force myself and have not written anything since. At this point I need to treat my Wealthy Affiliate account as a needed service rather than a place to make money. My finals in life are not monetary. This whole thing might be just a long case of writer's cramp, I don't know, but I don't see it as ever going back to what it was at this point. I will still stay in for at least another year and treat current trends with myself as a slump.