I am lost
I've been doing my bootcamp training. Kinda fell off that wagon last 2 months of last year. I could feel my ambition was gone. And when I couldn't come up with any goals for the new year, thats when I went searching.
I know by just looking at my bookshelf, that buying any self help books to read, well would just join all the others on the bookshelf. Being unread. So I got audible...got a few books downloaded. I got tired of the first one, when he spent like 10 minutes trying to sell you his other books at www.blah blah blah.com
I'm suppose to go to Florida next week, but I'm seriously thinking about cancelling. My purpose for going was to spend some time with my dad, who will be 80 next month. I won't go into our history together, lets just leave it as he may have been there in body when I was growing up, but 'he' was too busy being in the bottle. He's on his kick about moving back in with us, again, and it will consume all of our conversations when I go see him. I am not well enough to look after him. we tried it before and my health took a dive, and I started having seizures again. He tries bribing us with money, promising to not get on my nerves and that he'll take care of himself. He has dementia, and he cannnot take care of himself. Thats why he's at an ALF.
I just sit here with my laptop in my lap, going over all the things I've read here at WA about not quitting, continue with the training, and push on. I have no desire to do so. I think it's been coming on for awhile. One friend was feeling down, and I knew exactly what to say to get them out of their rut. Not so easy to follow my own advice.
Maybe I'll go to Florida, and not tell my dad I'm there for a couple of weeks, hit some doggie beaches with Mojo, and just soak up the sun. But while saying that, I don't know if I'll even go.
I don't know what to do....
Sorry for the personal pity party. AND I DON'T CARE IF SOME PEOPLE THINK ITS INAPPROPRIATE FOR A BUSINESS FORUM. Just skip over my post and keep your negative $hi! to yourself. AND you know who you are.
For the rest of you kind hearted, decent people, have a great week. May all your dreams come true,