Torn between 2 niches.
I had to leave Thursday for a medical conference. The Internet at the hotels was awful. I haven't been on WA much because of that.
I didn't want to go on Thursday. It was my daughter's birthday Thursday. I would have much rather been hanging with her. I would have rather stayed home and worked on my blog this weekend. Played cards with friends on Friday. Golfing Saturday.
And - I have been enjoying the last 7 weeks NOT talking about sickness and health and air purifiers. I used to BE sick. (for 20+ years) I'm not. I feel good. I work on wellness every day. I feel worse when I am around sickness.
I feel like no one listens to me in health advice anyway. I'm not a doctor. Yes, I am well after 20+ years of sickness. I brought my son back from a year of being very sick - wheelchair bound, seizures, throwing up - but very few follow the protocol we did to get well. I have watched the same people stay sick for years.
Some come around and get well. That is rewarding,.
But watching many thousands do nothing much, or worse - do a lot (but not the right things) and stay sick is difficult.
I got home late last night (2am)
It's 8 am - and I am thinking over my life choices.
I represent these air purifiers because they changed my life but I don't really like selling them.
I don't really like going to these conferences when I don't want to go.
I don't really like coaching people through using an air purifier. And with these air purifiers - that is necessary. It is a new technolgy and I'm not a scientist. The company doesn't have studies to help to explain how these work - so I have to do it. To doctors and patients alike - and I get tired of it.
There is a strong burning smell when it is eliminating a large amount of toxins. That smell diminishes as it brings the toxin levels down. I don't know how they work - I just know they do.
I tell our story of being able to get our health back, stay in our home and save our stuff. But truly - I hate that story. My son was so sick. I was so sick. My whole family was sick. All from a sick building.
Writing about health - sickness - air cleaners and our experience getting very sick from toxins is very difficult for me. It's a ton of reasearch - into sickness. Talking to sick people every day who are having trouble moving forward - is hard on my health. Hearing about people with cancer, asthma, allergies, Lyme, MS, ALS... totally draining just listing all the things people are suffering with that could be helped with clean air, clean electricity, clean food, clean personal products and clean water.
On the other hand - I feel like making this air purifier available to sick people is more meaningful. I love getting phone calls saying: "the rash I've had for years is gone" "the nodules on my lungs are gone" "I feel better than I have in years"
I learn something new about health and healing every time I go to one of these conferences.
But, I hate crying. I hate seeing people sick. I hate being around negativity, sadness, death, sickness and suffering. I feel like talking about sickness - even if I turn it around to wellness - makes it difficult for me to stay well. I feel hung over today and I didn't drink. Traveling makes me woozy. I'm not sure if it is the mold exposures from various buildings I spent time in or something else.
When I found WA - I felt like I found home.
I started a blog 7 weeks ago in the work from home - start a business website- niche
I know a lot about WP blogging already and am learning so much more in WA - and I really love writing about business and blogging. I love hanging around positive people with a great attitude whether online or on the beach. :)
Before we got sick - I had a blog helping people with building a business. I have done web design, local SEO, tutorials, webinars and classes in staring and building websites. I love all of this! And I am still helping people - but in a different way.
But, I feel like I am abandoning sick people who need me if I leave that niche.
I am truly torn between 2 niches. I have thought about doing both - but I have trouble switching gears. I have a health blog - but I have not been touching it because I would rather work on my new blog and stay in that mindset.
I know what I want. But, I feel like I am being called to something else.
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Heather, like most here, I also believe the answer is already within you. Here's what I would suggest.
- First, decide what is going to give you more long-term happiness; helping others or helping yourself.
- Then, even if it is going to be more work, make that happen. It may require a shift in how you view things, but it is doable.
When I was in the military (US Air Force), I decided early on that, no matter where I am sent, no matter how "bad" an assignment is generally perceived, and no matter what my original perception of the assignment might have been, I would go out of my way to find AT LEAST one thing that I loved about it. That mindset shift served me well so that I NEVER had an assignment that I did not absolutely learn to love.
I don't know if that helps any, but I hope that in some small measure, it does.
Wish you the best.
Joshua
That definitely helps - and you are right. Focus on something positive and learn to love something about what you are doing. great advice. Thank you
So much of what you talked about resonated strongly with me. Thanks you for sharing a deeply personal situation.
Perhaps you should write about health. Something positive not negative.
I cannot walk (my hobbies were mountain walking and jogging). I have a boundless enthusiasm for life and a positive outlook. I was a Army Medic for over 13 years and I know how lucky I am.
Write from your hart and count your blessings.
All the very best.
Jim
I am so sorry you cannot walk. Not sure your situation - but my son could not walk because he would have a seizure and collapse from walking - and he is 100% well now. I wish the same for you and will keep you in my prayers. Just thinking about you not walking pulls on the empath in me and I well up with tears.
I have been writing about health for 4 years - I have a "good health" website where I share what we did to get well - and what we still do. That is what takes too much research and brings me back into the sickness - and the people who contact me are sick - and I am drained from it. I am thinking about taking it down - but I know how many people I have helped. So maybe I will just abandon it -- but leave it up.
That's what I am trying to figure out.
When I was in the army Medical Corps I was told 'A dead medic is no use to anyone. Look after yourself and you can then look after others'.
I think you know what you have to do.
All the very best.
Jim
Appreciate the share. Trust yourself to know because the answer is there. All the best. Joseph
Hi Heather, There is no right answer that you are going to be able to get from myself or anyone else in the WA family. Of course I think you knew that before your wrote the blog. Its just that sometimes it helps to write things down or express your frustrations to others.
The answers you are looking for can come from no other place than from your own heart. Only you can make the kind of decision you are describing in your blog.
Your situation though different in its foundation, is not very different from the decisions thousands of people face every day as they trudge off to punch a time clock or sit behind a desk working for someone else. They are doing what makes them happy.
Best advise anyone can give you is to listen to your heart, and make sure to use your head just to make sure that the decision your heart wish you to make, makes sense. Your head doesn't has to justify the decision, it only needs to make sure that you can make your hearts desire work...
You're absolutely right. As I was writing - it was a release and a reach for help - while knowing the answer is in me - and up to me.
I think getting some input may help - every comment so far HAS been helpful,. So, thank you,. Thank you for telling me that this is like deciding to leave a job - that is true. And it's something I had not really thought of.
You are welcome Heather.... follow your heart, just use your head as you do, and you will make the best decision for you....
Do where your heart leads you, when you hate something, people van tell from a distance, start loving your air purifier, or go for the other niche.
My two cents:)
Ooooh - that's good advice. What you said really struck emotion - so there has to be something there. I do have love for the air purifier - but also - having trouble with loving it at times.
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I haven't got anything more to add to the advice already given but I would like to say it is wonderful to see the help and support you have received from others at WA. The support we receive here at WA from other people is worth the subscription alone so thank you to everyone who took the time to reply.
Best Wishes
Hazel