Torn between 2 niches.

I had to leave Thursday for a medical conference. The Internet at the hotels was awful. I haven't been on WA much because of that.

I didn't want to go on Thursday. It was my daughter's birthday Thursday. I would have much rather been hanging with her. I would have rather stayed home and worked on my blog this weekend. Played cards with friends on Friday. Golfing Saturday.

And - I have been enjoying the last 7 weeks NOT talking about sickness and health and air purifiers. I used to BE sick. (for 20+ years) I'm not. I feel good. I work on wellness every day. I feel worse when I am around sickness.

I feel like no one listens to me in health advice anyway. I'm not a doctor. Yes, I am well after 20+ years of sickness. I brought my son back from a year of being very sick - wheelchair bound, seizures, throwing up - but very few follow the protocol we did to get well. I have watched the same people stay sick for years.

Some come around and get well. That is rewarding,.

But watching many thousands do nothing much, or worse - do a lot (but not the right things) and stay sick is difficult.

I got home late last night (2am)

It's 8 am - and I am thinking over my life choices.

I represent these air purifiers because they changed my life but I don't really like selling them.

I don't really like going to these conferences when I don't want to go.

I don't really like coaching people through using an air purifier. And with these air purifiers - that is necessary. It is a new technolgy and I'm not a scientist. The company doesn't have studies to help to explain how these work - so I have to do it. To doctors and patients alike - and I get tired of it.
There is a strong burning smell when it is eliminating a large amount of toxins. That smell diminishes as it brings the toxin levels down. I don't know how they work - I just know they do.

I tell our story of being able to get our health back, stay in our home and save our stuff. But truly - I hate that story. My son was so sick. I was so sick. My whole family was sick. All from a sick building.

Writing about health - sickness - air cleaners and our experience getting very sick from toxins is very difficult for me. It's a ton of reasearch - into sickness. Talking to sick people every day who are having trouble moving forward - is hard on my health. Hearing about people with cancer, asthma, allergies, Lyme, MS, ALS... totally draining just listing all the things people are suffering with that could be helped with clean air, clean electricity, clean food, clean personal products and clean water.

On the other hand - I feel like making this air purifier available to sick people is more meaningful. I love getting phone calls saying: "the rash I've had for years is gone" "the nodules on my lungs are gone" "I feel better than I have in years"

I learn something new about health and healing every time I go to one of these conferences.

But, I hate crying. I hate seeing people sick. I hate being around negativity, sadness, death, sickness and suffering. I feel like talking about sickness - even if I turn it around to wellness - makes it difficult for me to stay well. I feel hung over today and I didn't drink. Traveling makes me woozy. I'm not sure if it is the mold exposures from various buildings I spent time in or something else.

When I found WA - I felt like I found home.

I started a blog 7 weeks ago in the work from home - start a business website- niche

I know a lot about WP blogging already and am learning so much more in WA - and I really love writing about business and blogging. I love hanging around positive people with a great attitude whether online or on the beach. :)

Before we got sick - I had a blog helping people with building a business. I have done web design, local SEO, tutorials, webinars and classes in staring and building websites. I love all of this! And I am still helping people - but in a different way.

But, I feel like I am abandoning sick people who need me if I leave that niche.

I am truly torn between 2 niches. I have thought about doing both - but I have trouble switching gears. I have a health blog - but I have not been touching it because I would rather work on my new blog and stay in that mindset.

I know what I want. But, I feel like I am being called to something else.