How are we all doing?

Last Update: March 30, 2020

I just wanted to write a very quick blog before 'Home School' starts to ask: How are you all doing?

Here in the UK we have been on 'lock down' for one week. I am not going to lie it has been the longest, hardest week of our lives and in fact I feel like I have lived many lifetimes in that long seven days.

I have been through the anxiety that nobody seemed to be taking the virus seriously and were not adhering to any social distancing at all, so although 'Lock down' was something I never would have agreed to before (I love my freedom and liberty too much), now I am quite grateful for it, it has made me feel safe, and as a mother I feel I can keep my children safe this way.

At the beginning of the week my company closed its doors for a while and I did not know if I had a job anymore or whether I would have any income. Four sleepless nights followed, and days trying to home school and not let the stress and anxiety show to my children. I am pleased to report our government has sorted the income issue and I find myself grateful to a government I do not agree with and did not vote for.

Like many, in the early days, I became a little addicted to the news, watching hours, just in the hope some news would come and then just to keep up with how the world was doing. However, after days of just hearing the word Coronavirus and hearing of all the new cases and deaths, I decided to abandon that and just 'check in' every couple of days, in case there was anything I needed to do.

So I am sure like many of you, we now live our lives in the confines of our home boundaries, living, eating, sleeping, cleaning, teaching, working, socialising, relaxing, stressing, arguing, and loving in four walls and if you are lucky a garden. I am all of a sudden truly grateful for my home and the warmth and safety it provides us. I am grateful for every bit of food and of course every roll of toilet paper!

Sayings like 'beating the curve' and reaching 'the peak' are all common place now. I never thought that in my generation I would be in lock down during a pandemic. I am truly grateful I am where I am and in the position I am, money, jobs, things mean little now, and it is the laughs, the conversations and the love that means everything.

Here in the UK we are allowed an hour of 'exercise time', apparently this is 'good for our mental health'. So we all endevour on our daily walks around the block. Mostly this is a lonely silent experience, where you can hear the creaking of the fences and the clanging of the lamp posts. Occasionally you will encounter another human being, doing the same, or walking their dog, and you do this awkward make way for each other, trying your best to stay over 2 meters apart. You smile and sometimes have the courage to speak. Then sometimes (if you are lucky) you get the bonus of meeting the same person (or people) on the other side of the block, and you both laugh.

My Mum is 72 and suffers from COPD, so she has been put on a strict twelve-week isolation. Now my sister and I live in fear, protecting her like the most precious thing in the world. We have to love from afar. My sister delivers supplies, knocks and has to walk away, she says it is heartbreaking. I live away from her and have had to cancel going to stay at Easter. I speak to my Mum every day now, whereas before 'the virus', we would speak when I had time! When we speak, we talk about nothing and everything and she has now learned to send GIFFS, so we laugh throughout the day at stupid things, truly grateful for each other.

I have become much more connected and caring of the world and my fellow human beings. I listen to their figures and stories and feel the same anxiety, fear and pain, but also we share the wonder of the human spirit and the connection. Community spirit has been reignited and here in the UK we met on our driveways in our dressing gowns to clap for the wonderful NHS staff who are on our front line.

I am also grateful for all the networks and connections I have through social media and here at WA. It's amazing how in a crisis strangers can become friends and a whole world can connect and realise there is no difference between us, no matter of our colour, creed, religious orientation, sexual orientation. Borders and countries and rules and laws mean nothing to the virus. We are all human and have lungs and imune systems that may have to fight it.

If we are lucky, nobody we know (including ourselves) will get sick, and we will breathe a sigh of relief that we obeyed the rules and avoided it. But then we will hear from a friend whose mother has died, or someone famous who has contacted it, or a doctor who died treating the sick, and we will be reminded that we didn't escape it, because we too feel their grief and pain and loss, we are living this together.

What I have learned in the last seven days is gratitude, for even the smallest thing. As I watched the news last night, I saw those in India, in crowds trying to flee home to their villages, and inside I feared for them and sent them love.

Ten days ago, all many people thought about was shopping and panic buying as much as they could, stockpiling toilet rolls, paracetamol, pasta and tinned goods. This week in isolation, all you think about is how none of that matters, just being well, warm, fed and loved is enough.

I admit, I am going stir crazy inside with the Hubby and my two children. They sing too loud, there energy invades mine, they are demanding and needy. I am exhausted yet bored at the same time. But wow am I grateful for them and it all.

I am happy to report my website is doing well and I have 6 more sales in the last 3 days. I have lots of time for my new website, in fact I have nothing but time and energy to dedicate to it. So I end this blog with healing and well wishes to you all and of course much gratitude for having this outlet and the opportunity to connect. Be well my friends.

Much Love

Sara

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amcg Premium
Wow! Yes, a lockdown like that would be very trying! We aren't quite like that yet here in Alberta, Canada, however, all non essential services have been closed.

I went for a bike ride with my family on Sunday and I found the energy different when we biked passed fellow people walking their dogs.

An air of uncertainty could be felt (at least I could feel it).

I am looking forward to when this is over, but will happily do my part and stay home until it is.

Stay safe and thank you for sharing! We are all in this together and I send you a HUGGGGG via the internet!

Anna
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SaraPoyner Premium
Thanks Anna, and the hug is being sent right back at ya : )
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Twack Premium
I think you have written the story of the many. I have heard it said that 'life will never be the same' and 'The world has changed'
They may be right, who knows ?
One thing that would be a shame though, is if we come out of the other side the same. If we learn nothing about ourselves and our fellow man, then I fear, the world will remain the same and that would be one huge, missed opportunity
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SaraPoyner Premium
Not 'On topic' though hahaha

Very true words my friend! Is humanity finally ready to listen and learn? I guess our old friend time will tell xx
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CordeliaN Premium
Liked the post, very much,
I especially resonated with the description of the hour of exercise which is suggested to help our mental health.....
“Mostly this is a lonely silent experience, where you can hear the creaking of the fences and the clanging of the lamp posts”.... lol absotootly, weird just downright weird, the whole thing is surreal, driving to work (I’m allegedly a key worker....substance misuse counsellor in a men’s prison, but today new measures were enforced we are no longer allowed to see them, we can go into the prison but not see the men...) anyway I digress, driving to work is a lonely business, Justin me and couple of scaffolding vans, also white van man and the DPD and Ocado delivery are the only drivers on the road....

so at work in my key working role (today) we were told as we are no longer able to support the men (who are to be banged up for 33 hours at a time, allowed out on a rota basis) we are no longer able to meet them 1-1 and it is us that is the risk to them (they are not wrong) we have been given a “contingent rota” which actually means only working a two day week....

I now have no excuse, the “haven’t got the time to do exercise or update my website” is now just that an excuse I must must get my WA act together.

We have at least 4/more weeks of lockdown, maybe more, surely that will kick start my indolent behind.

I also resonated with the part of your blog about loved ones isolating, like you I have a high risk Mum, she is 87 and like your Mum is also 12 weeks self isolating, I too speak every day, (often Mum will call me many more times) but how glad are we they still can.

This whole pandemic has made me look at our (my) life and with a scalpel in hand I am going to cut out all the waste of time things, (although I will still watch box sets of rubbish)

Sara it is lovely to read your post and lovely to hear your voice...😉🤗
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SaraPoyner Premium
Lovely to hear from you! I can imagine the roads are just filled with supermarket delivery vans!

I completed my second social distancing shop today. Strange to see the Perspex screens that now separate the cashier (obviously completely necessary). It was odd game of chess, trying to keep two metres apart.

It is definitely a new life experience and one I am sure will feed us with plenty to write about.

As you say isolation does also give us the luxury of more time to spend on our websites and to evaluate what is really important in this ever so precious life xx
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CordeliaN Premium
Off out now to attempt (for the 7th time) the pharmacy run.
Each day the queue has been over 2 hours, or shut.... 😢

Look forward to hearing more of your exploits, keep safe lady...❤️
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SaraPoyner Premium
'God Speed' my friend xxx
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LenkaSophie Premium
Hi Sara,
similar here in Czech Republic, but we have been one of the first countries in Europe with lockdown, I think, it's been on for three weeks already.
I'm lucky I live in a small village and can go for a walk any time I want. But have to wear a face mask when I leave the house (can take it off in five minutes when I'm out in fields).
I also stopped following the news and only check it once in a while. It only makes you feel depressed.
Stay safe,
Lenka
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SaraPoyner Premium
thanks Lenka. Yes this is one thing that I have observed. Here in the UK no one is wearing a mask (at all), yet the whole rest of the world seems to be? Enjoy the countryside, and the walks in it : )
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DarrenNicola Premium
Hello Sara and great to hear from you today.

We are having very similar experiences in Australia, we are not in total lockdown as of yet.

Social distancing is the new thing, but if it saves lives that is all good.

All the best and congrats on your continued progress.

Darren & Nicola :)
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SaraPoyner Premium
Yeah, the UK found social distancing very difficult to get! even rebelled and made a joke of it. Now only a few are making a joke or rebelling xx Stay well guys
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