Time Flies!

I can't believe I lost almost two important weeks with Landon and it is killing me right now. I have no idea why everything compounded in my damn head this last week. I will say depression and anxiety in adult men and women can be serious. We obviously started our website in order to lean towards helping kids that is why it revolves mostly around him.

We can all be effected no matter the age and boy I wish I could have predicted this so I could have tried to stop it. I found myself in the basement with the light turned of and just isolating which made it worse. I have no idea that I was missing days at a time and God only knows what was going the the wife's mind and poor little Landon. I thank her so much for taking him to the local fair to keep him busy but I MISSED IT ALL! I now only have the pictures she sent me.

I keep trying to write the things down that was going through my head so maybe I can stop it next time. The stupid list just keep growing longer and longer to the point it was sucking me into the same rabbit hole so I had to stop.
1- Is it my past 3 cancers that wasted most of my childhood?
2- Is it my CHF that happened in 2019?
3- Maybe its the years that followed of always being in the hospital for weeks at a time?
4- Heck it could have been my family was limited in visits to hospital because of Covid?
5- To even losing my career due to all of this lost time at work and everything I learned and went to school for?
6- Or is it due to hoping this platform would have worked out better for me by now. I know it has to do with me not grasping everything and maybe taking the wrong road in WA!

I hope this works out because "I feel as a man" it is so difficult to lose your way when everyone is counting on us. It may be pride or because we are taught at a young age to get a job, buy a house, get married and have kids. You better also be able to support and take care of them along the journey of life. I hope this phase passes and I can get my head of the sand and pull up my britches and buckle down!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!