This weekend, I lost my Best Friend.I feel Paralyzed.

Last Update: March 16, 2015

Just One Month after losing my Brother-in-Law to Brain Cancer, Tragedy has found me again. How do I get away from this Dark Cloud? I feel Paralyzed...

Saturday was one of the most difficult days of my life. God, I'm getting tired of having to say that...

Vinny was not just, "man's best friend," he was MY Best Friend. On more than one occasion he was also, my Only friend...

He was the kind of friend that was not only, always there for me, but who could make even the worst of times, a little bit better. Except for today. Today was the first, last and Only time, you could not help heal my wounded heart.

He was the type of friend who could make you smile and laugh, when you didn't think you had a smile or a laugh left to give. He was always there for me, always loving, never judging and always by my side.

He was my wingman, my Vin-man and I still can't imagine my life without him.

Vinny was not "just a dog," he was buddy, my buzz, my wingman, and my partner in crime.

His energy and happiness were contagious and he loved to play more than anything in the world. He spread his happiness with pride and left an impression on literally every person he met. He had the energy and exuberance of a puppy and even as he got older, he would shock people when I told them his age.

I love you so much, Vin and I miss you already. You're the best friend I've ever had and I could not have made it this far without you.

Your happiness was my happiness and you touched more lives than you will ever understand. You will remain in my heart until it no longer beats.

As I try to ward off the stinging of my tears, I try to remember that you are in a better place now, playing fetch again, as I write this and no longer suffering. Your pain was my pain and I could not let you suffer one minute longer.

I love you so much with every ounce of my heart, bud. You have a permanent place there and through my immense sadness and pain, I try to remind myself just how lucky and thankful I am to have had you in my life.

No matter what, you will always be my best friend. You will ALWAYS be my wingman...

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letjeh2014 Premium
I'm so sorry for the loss of your best friend, Vinny. I've gone through this before as well...4 times, in fact. It's never easy and is always heart-breaking. I'm glad he's not in pain anymore. Hugs, Laura
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ShirleyWoon Premium
Ohhh, my heart goes out to you. No words will stop the pain of loss of well loved friends. Can only pray for time to ease a little, just a little the ache in your heart....God's grace and peace on you,
Shirley
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Indi-Em Premium
I'm so sorry about Vinny. It's really hard when a life companion leaves your side. I know what that's like. You need to grieve. It's ok to cry. The pain will lessen, but you need time. Take care of yourself.

Emilie
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Mylife1502 Premium
I know loss can be a very difficult time in anyone's life and it is very hard to think about anything else. Remember the good times and treasure the time you spent together. You'll always have them in your heart and they wouldn't want you to
Be unhappy.

If you need to talk let me know.

Tanya
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cani Premium
I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't imagine what your going through, I have 2 myself and they are indeed part of the family
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