A Fall and Difficulty to Sleep
Last Update: Sep 25, 2023
Earlier last week I fell. It rained and the floor was wet. With my legs weakened by chemotherapy and feet and toes numbed with nerves tingling, it was difficult to walk. Added to the wet floors, I slipped and fell ... hard.
I was stunned and could not get up. Felt pain all over my body. Fortunately, two kind souls came along and helped me to get up and walked me to the lift of my apartment block. I made my way home on my own.
After that, I noticed a scrapped knee which I quickly washed and sprayed with antiseptic. My hands were already numb with nerves tingling, as well as the effects of chemotherapy. Added the fall and my entire arm hurt. My nerves have pulsing pain along my arm. And my elbow hurt even with a slight touch.
The worst part is - sleepless nights. I had already suffered that for almost 2 years due to colostomy and chemotherapy. The past week, every time the nerves pulsed in pain along my arm, it hurt and I could not get to sleep. When I did for an hour or so, I would be awakened by the searing pain.
By today, Monday morning, I had not been sleeping well. And it affects my well-being. Last night, I was at breaking point. I was upset with all the pain and suffering I have been going through the past 2 years, and especially the past few days and nights.
I was trying to reason why this is happening. What did I do to have these things happen to me? I have been doing my best to think positively. I said my prayers. I said positive affirmations. I kept watching videos and reading articles to learn how to be more positive in my thoughts and to manifest good things in my life.
Surely, I did not manifest all this in my life, I thought. That fall I had - what did I do to manifest that? I received no answers. Only strange dreams of alternate lives in parallel worlds.
Should I stop thinking positively? Should I stop saying all the positive affirmations?
After much thought and reflection on my thoughts and actions, I decided not to give up. I told myself - whether I think positively or not, things still happen. Whether I am happy or not, things still happen.
So, why not keep thinking positively? Why not keep saying positive affirmations?
And I did that just a few minutes ago before writing this blog post.
And I started to feel better. Not 100% better. But a little better. Well, better than how I felt hours ago.
It was then that I truly realized the power of positive thinking. It really does lift a person's spirit. It may not do it 100% at once. But a little is a good start. And when continued, it can be more uplifting over time.
So, I will continue to do that- to think positively and keep saying positive affirmations.
As I felt a little better, I felt ready to do the work I needed to do this week.
I plan to improve the design of my book cover. Do one more final round of edit of my book. And publish it by the end of this week. Should I have any additional free time, I would plan more blog posts for my blog and new videos for my channel.
Thank you for reading this. I write this blog post with the hope that anyone who is going through a tough time knows that you are not alone. There are others going through tough times too. And together, we can get through it.
I also write to hope to inspire you to keep thinking positively. I know there may be times when it would be hard. But don't give up.
As my late shaman teacher from New Zealand once taught me and all her students - The most difficult thing to do, when facing a difficult time, is to say 'Thank you for this experience. All is well.' She said that can turn things around, and magic happens. I believe her.
I wish you good health, wealth, and success!
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