April 15,2016
It has been awhile since I did a blog. Today, I really thought that it would probably do me some good to just write about how I am truly feeling. Doesn't really have anything to do with my website, but needed to really express what I am going through at this very moment.
Today, at 6pm, it will be exactly 2 years since my daughter Tiffany took off her boxing gloves and loosened her boot-strings. If that isn't enough....also today at 655pm, 12 years ago, I saw for the last time my Dad's brown eyes and quirky smile.(Not to mention it being the last day to do your income taxes)
It hasn't been easy or a bed of roses. Nor would I wish it on anyone to have to go through even one second of what I have had to endure. My whole world had crashed down around me making it hard for me to breathe. If that wasn't enough... had to remodel 3/4 of my 4bedroom-2bathroom house as it got water damage from not only a broken water pipe, but Mother Nature was feeling left out so she decided to rain really hard for about 5 days. It ended up being that the only room that didn't have to be redone was my master bedroom. I didn't have anything in my kitchen except for the fridge, stove, and microwave. We somehow made it through.
Guess I was thinking things were starting to get better after getting the house once again livable and we could actually cook and do dishes once again. In Oct.. I got hurt at my place of work. I ended up having a total knee replacement done. (This time to my left knee)(so now I have two fake knees)Sad thing is not only did I lose my case against my place of work, but I can't even return to a regular job as I not only can't stand for long periods of time, but I can't walk long.
That is one of the reasons that I am at WA and very glad that I am!!!! I not only have been learning about websites, niches,etc..... BUT have met ALOT of wonderful people. There is one in particular that was the first person who reached out to me and asked if I needed help as they sensed that I may be having some difficulty. They helped me in more ways than just with things here at WA. Ever since .... they have kept an eye on me in case I needed more help or just someone to talk to. (Don't know if I am supposed to use other member's names etc......BUT.....I want the new people who join to know that there is really actually people here that will take time from what they are working on to help you. I tease this person from time to time by the nickname I call them. They are my knight in shining armor riding in on a white horse to rescue me... name?Chris Scott akaTEDDY BEAR (There needs to be more people in the world like him.) I AM VERY PROUD TO CALL HIM NOT ONLY MY FRIEND, BUT MY BUDDY.
If you ever get a chance.... please stop in and say hi to him. He has really helped me in trying to get myself back to being me again. Chris not only does a wonderful job when he blogs as it ALWAYS seems to hit home but his website is one that I have returned to many times when I am having one of those moments. What is the website??? It is http://spiritual-warfare.info. He also has another website: WWW.Retirement-Cash.org
Thank you Teddy Bear for everything that you have done for me!
Guess now it is time to get busy some more on my website and instead of feeling more emotional than usual today...I need to be grateful and happy as even though I miss Tiff more than anyone would ever know.... she is no longer suffering and in pain. Not only that but she is with my Dad.
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He just posted an outstanding blog today. I agree 100 %. I'm glad things are getting better for you
In many ways, I feel what you are going through. My mom passed 3 years ago, I miss her so much. When the days are cloudy outside, it doesn't affect me, but when it's bright and sunny outside, that's when I miss her the most. God keeps us here for a purpose and a reason, to help each other and reassure one another through difficult times like these. With His love and constant care, we will get through this, and so much more! His timing is much better than ours will ever be. We have to trust and believe that He knows what's best for us, even though it doesn't seem like it at the time. He always brings us through!
I am so sorry for your lose but they say God never put more on us than we can handle. Just keep your head up and keep reaching for the stars.
Thanks James... I REACHING!!!! I was always told too that God would never put more "on our plate" than we can handle. I have often wondered what I would have to do to get a smaller plate??? LOL
Not easy on you and that makes you even stronger. Life can beat us up unexpectedly, but we learn to adapt, keep the head up and continue on our journey.
Keep on you good work and be proud of the achievement. All the best.
Nadiya
Thanks Nadiya
That is what I have always been told..that if you can make it through whatever is thrown you way... there is only two ways... and if it isn't that way... it only makes you stronger
Thanks for your wonderful message, Rhett. You are someone who knows the ropes of life and nothing, I believe, will be able to fool you or stop you from finding your way.
I, too, am an admirer of Teddy Bear and his wonderful character.
And he's so modest! Always helps the other person first, without giving a thought to himself. But I think he has great inner strength.
I wish you nothing but more happiness and success in all areas that can be thought of, Rhett, you more than deserve it!
Thank you so much for being in my network!
Much love and blessings,
Therese
Hi Therese
Teddy Bear is indeed a pure gem!!!!! I am a lot like that myself in many ways. I am always trying to help others before I think of myself. Have always been that way. I would give someone the shirt off my back if they needed it.
Thank you.
I sometimes forget that as I am always putting others before me. I cant even remember when the last time I did something for myself. But that is ok. I love to help people and ALWAYS tell my friends that if they need something, please don't hesitate to ask me for help. If it is possible for me to do at the moment I will. If I cant I will tell them that I cant at that moment but somehow always finds a way to do it. I might not have much, but what I have, I don't mind sharing if you really need something
It all shows in your eyes, Sis. I can see it there as plain as day. God has a plan for you and will keep you safe and secure.
When I got down over a bunch of 'junk' and 'stupidity', He pulled me out of it and left me with a motto. That motto is: "I'm either up or getting up". There's no down any more. If you ever need to talk or dump it all PM me and we can do just that. You are loved.
Ian
Thanks Ian
I appreciate you reaching out and offering to be there for me. You are right God has a plan for me and only he knows what it is. Just like Tiff. He had a plan for her. I was lucky enough to be the one that he lent her to until he needed her,
I feel your pain hunny. This has been a hard week for me - 7 years ago I lost my mom and my sister within 6 days of each other, both of them very unexpectedly. Take care of yourself and feel free to reach out to me if you would like someone to talk to :)
Thanks Jude
It is hard. I didn't even mention that the dog that Dan and I rescued from the pound. He couldn't bark but was a very good dog. His name was Titan and a pitbull. He was mine. When Tiff came back home and got sick, he made her his numero uno. Was always helping her with anything she needed. He would sleep with her. If he thought something was going wrong, he would come get me. Sad to say...6 months to the day after Tiff passed...Titan passed away with the same thing that she had.Cancer
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I am glad you found courage to write about this. I know it helps to talk, and it helps others to open up too! It was nice to learn more about you today. You seem like a wonderful person Rhett, and I do pray that very soon you will be given a smaller plate...maybe dollhouse size ( )