Broken hearted and in shock
My heart is broken in 2. Both of my beloved boys are gone. Last week we got a difficult diagnosis for our boys. Went into the Vet with one issue on Finn and she quickly told us that FINN had laryngeal paralysis which is a difficult diagnosis to hear.
At the same visit we asked her to take a look at BOO's lymph nodes that were extremely large. After she ran a bunch of tests she told us that he had lymphoma cancer that had already spread through his other lymph nodes. She was shocked how skinny BOO had become. Having cushings for the past 2 years had really taken a toll on him.
Our boys are our whole life, and we were not prepared for either diagnosis.
We walked away thinking we had some time left with both, but unfortunately FINN went down hill so quickly that we had to make the most difficult decision to put both boys down.
Thursday really was the worst day of my life. Going through the end of life for both our dogs at once was devastating.
I don't know how to exist in my house without them. Everywhere we go in our house is a reminder of our boys. Our family really is broken. The dead calm quiet is deafening.
Everyone says one day at a time, but honestly right now that seems so far away.
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I am so sorry Coraliej! I have six fur babies and can't fathom the day I lose another one. One of mine got taken way too young by a car a few years ago. I feel for you. Just try your hardest to remember the good times and keep their memories close to your heart!
That’s exactly what I will sure try and do. I think the memories are what we get when they leave us.
I have lots of pics and videos which I am thankful for.
Thank you
Coralie
That's horrible, Coralie. I'm so sorry for your loss. I still have dreams about some of my long-gone pets. I hope yours bring you peace.
Coralie, I'm very sorry to hear this news. We get so attached to our pets. They show unconditional love throughout their entire lives. It's so hard to tell how bad they are feeling as well.
I hope that you gain the strength to have brighter days in the near future.
Cal
Thank you Cal. I think the love they gave is the thing I am already missing the most.
It really is unbelievable how pets can change your life. Then when they leave a hole is left. My boys left a crater size hole.
I will try to look towards the future as you said, isn’t that the only choice we have.
Thanks
Coralie
This is so sad Coraliej.
I know the feeling of Losing. My star she was my best friend. Losing my dog Star was terrible and was so hard and Heart-breaking..
Any pet we have. Dogs, Cats, or any other pets they are like family members. The pain is still immense when losing our beloved pets. Losing two at the same time is devastating.
There are no words I can say to you to make you feel better only this.
That the two little fellows are happy they are together. They have each other.
That is the only comfort I could offer you now. :(
So sorry Coraliej. Sending you big hugs and Love. Thinking of you. :(
Thank you for your wonderful words.
I am glad that they are together. They never spent one day away from each other since they met.
Just tough on the momma to leave at the same time.
Time I know will let me remember all the funny and cuddly times we had. They will never be forgotten.
Coralie
Oh, Coralie, I'm SO sorry for your double loss. It's hard enough losing one pet, but I can't imagine the pain of losing them both. Praying for you. Carol
You're welcome. Any time. I lost my wonderful Raven, a certified therapy dog that I trained, and she's been gone for 5 years. I still cry sometimes when I think of or talk about her. I had a pet therapy program at the library called Read to Raven, where kids that had trouble reading could practice their skills without fear of being laughed at. I miss that and her so much. In time, your pain will subside some, and you will be comforted by your cherished memories of your furbabies.
I know exactly how you feel. I had a German Shepard name Jilly whom I had to let go of last month. I have been unemployed since May, not eligible for any benefits, so no income coming in. My girl Jilly had a deep cut in her leg at the elbow from sleeping on the floor and who knows what she may have gotten into while outside in our fenced-in yard. She and the other dogs would not sleep on the beds we bought for them. She kept licking her wound and it kept getting worse. I bandaged it daily but she would always tear it off. Got a donut pillow for her collar so she could not tear off the bandage, but she would find a way to ditch the pillow collar. Long story short I had to take her to the Animal Control dept because no vets in the city would help me get the care she needed without payment. I had to sign away my rights as an owner to her because I knew she was in great pain and I was in no position to help her. She either needed surgery for which I could not pay for or she needed to be released from her pain. I walked away, not knowing her fate but knowing inside that surgery was unlikely. One of the hardest things I had to do in my life, and I still feel her loss deeply a month later. I will be thinking of you and your family in your time of loss.
Hi Ken,
Such a heartbreaking story about Jilly. It really is sad how money is always the thing that is needed to save your pet. Anytime a Vet talks surgery it is cha ching cha ching. Thousands of dollars.
Seems unfair that one has to make that kind of decision.
I am so sorry about Jilly Ken. Losing our pets literally is the such an incredibly hard thing to go through.
Best of luck and thank you for sharing your story with me. It does seem to help when you know you are not alone.
Thank you
Coralie
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Sorry to hear this Coralie. It's always difficult to lose a loved pet. Two makes it twice as difficult. Jim
Thanks Jim