I Think I'm Back

byChristineDu1

1.9K followers

5 years ago

So, I did something I didn't think I was going to do ... I didn't sign into WA for several days, a week perhaps, I don't know ... So far, I didn't allow any events in my private life to affect my work on my websites and my training, but now I have done exactly that.

I stayed away from Bootcamp which I started with such enthusiasm. I did write at least one article a week, which is not much, but it was what I felt I could do. I didn't want my websites to go quiet.

It has been hard dealing with the fact that my best friend (He's like a brother to me) is in prison (innocent) on a trumped up charge, and I can't even go to see him ... I don't even even know in which prison he is ... His lawyers are working hard to get him out, but they are fighting a corrupt and lazy system ... So, we can wait and hope, and that's all ... Since this happened two months ago, I have been continuing with my life and my websites and training. My friend would have told me to do so, he has always been a beacon of positivity. Sometimes I imagine him in prison, telling his fellow inmates not to lose hope and giving lectures on how to stay positive. He always does that.

"If you can't change it, why cry over it?" He always told me. "Just keep on going."

When I lost my dog Dixon to a rattlesnake and my other dog Apollo passed away due to old age, I was heartbroken, but I continued. Then ... I lost a third dog ... three dogs dead in barely a month. My sweet Shelley was killed in a vicious dog attack ... and that was the straw that broke the camel's back. That one broke me ... I cried every day for more than a week, and I decided to leave my land for a while ... there had been so many sacrifices, deaths, and other bad things, I had to get away.

The mother of a girl I used to teach in junior high school offered me to look after her place, on the other side of the Baja peninsula (see above photo). It's a huge oasis in the desert, and so I accepted. I left my land, took my remaining three dogs with me (I had six) and moved to a little jungle place where I am looking after the property and the owner's two dogs until November. A vacation for the soul.

And it's doing me wonders. I think about Shelley every day, and I miss her, and Apollo, and Dixon. I think about my friend Roberto, but I keep on having faith that he will get out. This place here in the jungle though brings me peace, and it is exactly what I need.

The place I am staying at is a haven of peace. And there's electricity. It's weird to use these things like electricity, opening the fridge and seeing the light on, taking out the food and it's nice and cold, being able to buy bigger loads of vegetables and storing them for a longer time now, things many people take for granted.
Opening my laptop and connecting to wifi at home ... charging my phone in the wall socket and not in my car ... it's nice.

(photo: Mr. Freckles at the jungle place)

After having lived without electricity for a little over two years, I no longer take that for granted, I appreciate this luxury. I hope to get at least a small 12 volt solar panel for the trailer on my land, to have a few lights at least in the evening, because I don't want to go back to living with no electricity when I return to my land. (still inwardly debating whether I should continue there or just sell it ...)

So, today I think I am back on WA. I will start with website comments, on both the need website comments thread and the one in the left side menu. In the afternoon I will look at my keyword lists to write (a) new article(s) for both my websites. After having paused Bootcamp for two weeks now, I am planning on picking that up either on Sunday or Tuesday. I am a little bumped at a payment issue I am having with WA and which is not getting solved, but well, if it doesn't get solved, then I will find a solution myself.

(photo: Tommeeh at the jungle place)

So, I think I am back on WA. I noticed that several names of members that started with me or a little before or after me have disappeared or gone from WA ... I am no quitter. To be honest, in the last few days I have been wondering about giving it up, stopping the WA payments since they are turning into a little source of stress, but I just can't. I really don't know how to quit ... it's something I have always been unable to do ... Maybe that's a good thing. :-)