Hesitant Writer

A hesitant writer, that's me. I love to read and I don't mind writing, in fact I am pretty good at it. Every one of my posts have been indexed by Google in a matter of hours, literally. Not bragging, just saying I must be doing something right.

And yet, I hesitate to write blogs. Why? I'm not really sure. I just know that I don't sit down and write consistently (as I suppose I should).

Lots To Say

I have a list of blog/post ideas, and I have even started about 5 posts and have the saved drafts. Sometimes the urge just grabs me and I write. It just seems to flow out of me. Endless words. Various subjects. I just save what I've written for a future post. It seems to work fine.

I am diligent about reading all the blogs and training that show up in my email every day (to the tune of about 75 per day). I answer and comment and read for hours a day. Then my mind feels like mush and I find I can't concentrate on my training.

You see, I am very concientous about reading each one, answering each one, commenting on each one and welcoming new followers.

I go through each training thoroughly and ask questions as I need to. I want to learn everything I can.

I greatly appreciate the help and tutoring that I recieve. I deem it as invaluable.

Lost Momentum....uh oh....

So, I am behind on my training and loosing my momentum. This is not good. However, I have gone a couple of days without clearing out my emails and the result is too overwhelming to complete in one sitting. I am trying to develope a routine, but I'm not yet successful.

I was reading a blog by louisaparson about posting and bloging. It made me think about the way I viewed writing on WA. I feel it is valuable to aid in reaching people.

I know it is the carrot that we dangle in front of our visitors that gets them to come to our website to begin with.

I know it is how we impart information to our subject audience.

I know all of this, I like writing, words flow pretty easily for me. And yet, I am a hesitant writer.

What the @*?%#&! is wrong with me?

That is the million dollar question.

True, I am still learning about online marketing and I am still growing a website, and have two more in the designed and almost finished phase. I will continue to learn until the day I die. So I gather information on a daily basis.

Yet, I don't write posts as I should. I spend my time doing other WA activities. I get lost in the details of creation and maintaining. Then I don't have the mental energy to do the course work. My brain has turned to mushy gray matter.

The only thing that seems to renew my thinking abilities is to play a few (or, most often, more than a few!) games of Mahjong. On the computer, of course. The focus and interaction seem to clear the fog and bring me back from the mushy bog. Then I am refreshed and ready to pursue the course work.

But, by then it is usually time to fix dinner for the hubby person and shut down the computer for the evening.

My "work hours" tend to be from 7:30 am to about 5 pm Monday through Friday, and whatever I can squeeze out on Saturday and Sunday. It seems like a lot of time, but in truth, I have a relatively narrow window of productivity each day. I also have to fit in grocery shopping, house cleaning, laundry, errands, doctor appointments, and so on. In general, Life gets in the way.

So, I keep writing down blog ideas and post ideas. I keep saving drafts of words that pop into my head and flow forth. Occassionally I pull one out, as now, and fill in more words, and some images and publish the finished product.

Sometimes people actually read my words and enjoy my blogs. Sometimes they laugh and agree with me. Sometimes I'm sure they shake their heads and wonder why I even bothered to publish such drivvel.

Oh well. Such is the issue each writer faces. We choose our target audience. We impart fabulous words and ideas. We put a bit of ourselves into everything we write.

Then, we wait.

Will our readers like what they read?

It is always our hope, when writing, to impart something to our readers.

Entertainment and amusement. Information and direction. Whatever the angle we take as writers, we hope there will be an appreciative audience.

I, the hesitant writer that I am, am no different. I want my writing to illicit certain emotions, thoughts, actions, decisions and comments. I can hardly wait to see how it is received and what people think of my blog or post.

So, here we are, dear reader, at the end of my blog. Have you enjoyed it? Can you relate? Did you find it entertaining? Did it hit a serious note within you?

Please drop me a comment and let me know what you think. I appreciate every comment.

As Always,

Candice