Mental Health - OCD Support

Last Update: June 30, 2019

Imagine living in a world and having a disorder that noone knows about, noone talks about. Imagine having a disorder, so cruel that it lies to you. Imagine having noone to talk to, noone to ask, noone to share with. Imagine your brain telling you that you are a horrible person, that you do not deserve to be on this earth. Your brain, telling you that you have to kill your child, or drive thecar over the bridge. Each and everyday, the brain telling you that you have to die.

Imagine what all this can do to a person. Why? why? why do I have these wierd thoughts. Who can I talk to. If I open my mouth, people will laugh at me, people will abandon me, What to do? Where to go? Round and round, my thoughts keep going on and on in my brain. I can't stop thinking .Maybe if I drank brandy, it will go away. One glass, two glasses. At least now I can sleep. Those scary images will not bother me tonight. But, what about tomorrow? What do I do. Where can I run to. where? I find safety only in my bed. And pray they will leave me alone.

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JKulk1 Premium
You are not alone with these thoughts. There's one thing I know for certain, Alcohol and/or drugs only make it worse.
All the best. Jim
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Angelica65 Premium
That is very true Jim.
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Twack Premium
I understand where you're at Angelica and there's always hope. Not easy to believe when you're in the midst of it all. I'd love to give you a few words that will just make it all disappear but we both know that words are just that, words.
There are many different approaches to trying to stem the tide of OCD but they all rely on you being able to follow through with them. Not all of them will work as it manifests itself is so many different ways. CBT is the flavour of the month over here but again, the practices that are taught have to be 'practiced'. MIndfulness is another very effective method and again needs to be practiced.
The bottom line is that whichever one you pick, it's not going to happen overnight. However, from experience, I have found that it is important to recognise each and every victory you have and use it as a reminder that you can overcome. It doesn't matter how small because the next time you can think back and say "Not this time, I've beaten you on this before and I can do it again"
OCD grows both exponentially, insidiously and relentlessly and you have to do the same to keep it in check. One time becomes twice becomes three and so on. Everytime you win you push it back and it becomes weaker and you become stronger.
Keep posting Angelica, keep drawing on the strength of the community.
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Angelica65 Premium
Thank you for the kind words. It's good to know I can talk freely about my disorder without being judged. I really a
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Twack Premium
You're very welcome Angelica.
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Shellback Premium
Thank you for sharing!
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lesabre Premium
This has become a serious problem, with fatality rates increasing.

An actor and comedian who brought laughter into many a persons life.

I admired him very much. He was spontaneous to me his comedic talent was brilliant.

His name was Mr. Robin Williams, he committed suicide. This was so un-believable to me.

He made everyone laugh, while he was crying inside. Perhaps his coping mechanism. It did not work.

You are not alone. I will listen.

Angelica thank you for sharing this post. It is so important.

I wear a mask, most of the time. But I am taking it off. I feel safe here.

One of the many reasons, WA is so important to me.

Thank you,
Michael
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Angelica65 Premium
That's the thing Michael. We wear masks. When I tried to tell people about depression, they couldn't believe it. They all said , but you are one of th happiest person we know. Not knowing it's all a cove up. Smile, laugh and noone will notice what you are going through.
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lesabre Premium
Hi Angelica,

This is so true and sad. I wrote an article on depression, and a bit about my story. If you have the chance I would love for you to read it and give me some feed back.

If you do have the time I will PM my site address to you.

Thank you,
Best wishes,
Michael
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Angelica65 Premium
I would love to read your story
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KC1953 Premium
Try reading a book called The Science of Mind. It was written in 1926 by Earnest Holmes. You can find it online. Here is one link http://newthoughtlibrary.com/holmesErnest/scienceOfMind/

This book can change your life because you come to realize that EVERYTHING is simply a matter of perception or how you process reality. In simplest terms, change your thinking and you change yourself.

Everything wonderful starts with a thought. Everything horrible starts with a thought. Our world is a manifestation of our thoughts good and bad. Change those thoughts and the world transforms around you. It really is amazing once you grasp that concept.

It's sort of like WA. It's a simple concept and if you follow the steps it will produce results. No one says it will be easy but it can't help but work successfully if you have the tenacity to follow through.

I hope that helps a bit.
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Angelica65 Premium
Thank you so much. Will download. I find it very difficult though to just switch my mindset. Its been a struggle.
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KC1953 Premium
I do understand. I also know if you embrace what you are about to read, your thinking will change and with that, so will everything.
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MikeAdkins Premium
Hi angelica. I have a son who is 36. He had everything, a beautiful girlfriend and 2 stunning kids who are well behaved. He has always liked tin cans in a row, things done in order and hates mess. We always guessed he had a touch of ocd. Just recently he started to voice suicidal thoughts, I pressed him to go to the doctor and get help. He has since started counselling and it has helped a great deal. The councellor has said that he has mild depression and severe ocd. The suicidal thoughts stemmed from a fear of not being able to look after his children properly which is amazing as he was one of the the best dad's I ever saw. Seeing a professional has helped greatly. He now knows he is not mad and is not odd, this is hugely common. Can you go and see someone like my son has? Mike
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Angelica65 Premium
Hello Mike. Thanks for reaching out. This disorder can really be annoying. Yes I am seeing a Psychiatrist and I am on medication. But I discovered that this doesn't stop the intrusive thoughts and other symptoms but it greatly helped in reducing them and almost functioning normally wish your son all the best.
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MikeAdkins Premium
Hi Again.

Its the intrusive "negative" thoughts that are his problem, the other thoughts he has are not a major issue. He is getting there thank you.

I wish you all the very best,

Mike
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Angelica65 Premium
i used to have really terrible intrusive thoughts that i cant even share with anyone.
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MikeAdkins Premium
Bless you. I can't say I understand the problem but I do understand how difficult it is for you as I have seen the effects for myself of these thoughts. So many people on here have said it... You are not alone ❤️
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