Chicken & Egg?

There are many chicken & egg situations in life and I seem to be up against one now and for the past few months - it's contributing to me not doing anything on my site - which in turn is completely halting any progress that I made previously, in fact, I'm very much going in reverse.
I'm sure I can't be the only one that's coming up against this problem but I'm also sure there are many of you wonderful WA-ers out there who have valuable advice to help any of us through this glitch.
Let me explain....
I have a site which I'm very excited about and proud of, even though in content terms it's still very immature.
I initially signed up to be an afilliate of Amazon which covered most of the products that I write about - my niche is anti-ageing products and treatments. I also concentrated on a specialist product and had a direct affiliate partnership with the company concerned. The specialist product, I still believe, is a fantastic one - however, the company running the affiliate program seem to be scamming affiliates out of money so I ditched them. I am now concentrating more on the vast range of products and treatments out there in the anti-ageing market.
All sounds normal, I hear you say...

Well, yes. There wasn't a problem until Amazon kicked me out - I signed up with them right at the beginning of my journey, way too early - has anybody else done this?? Which of course meant that I wasn't up and running properly or bringing in the numbers before they closed my affiliate partnership down.
Looking at the overall picture I don't think this is a bad thing. It's not a negative in itself to stop me progressing I think the stumbling block is in my head. Have you ever had that, where you have a barrier in your head about a certain something and you just cannot overcome it??
I have so many things to write about and I keep writing posts for my site - I have many which are three quarters written in my site content and then I start another. The reason I don't finish them..... Is because I cannot find an affiliate partner for the products I'm writing about or if I can, it's almost a different affiliate program for each product which would mean a vast accumulation of partner programs?
So, how do successful people do it??
I am part of Awin and Sovrn but please forgive me for sounding like I have an exceptionally low I.Q. I don't know how to use them! They confuse the hell out of me.... is it just me?? This then leads me to all sorts of negative thoughts.... I'm not cut out for this, this is for more intelligent people than me, I can never make this work.... blah blah blah. However, I know these thoughts are wrong! I know that I can write. I know that I have knowledge and advice to give. It's the monetising it that I'm struggling with. Yes, I've heard people say that it's the helping people which is important - yes I partly agree with that - but let's be honest, most of us are here to make money too. I will never fulfil my dream of leaving my job and working for myself with my own on-line business if I just write to help people?
The bottom line is I have a site which has content on it that advises people but brings me no money because the products I write about and the images I use have no links to affiliate programs.
Am I alone in this thinking?

Lost Mojo?

Some of you will know me, I joined WA a year ago and went all guns blazing and was fully integrated in the WA family but when I was scammed and then Amazon kicked me into touch I lost my mojo. Admittedly I had a lot of other things going on to deal with but this year, everybody has had other things to deal with and it hasn't stopped you lovely people!

I don't think it's my mojo exactly that I've lost - I literally feel like I'm in a CHICKEN & EGG situation and it's stopping me mentally - from finishing posts and moving forward.

Chicken & Egg Conundrum:

I review products and write a detailed review on my site - I have no affiliate link to the products to monetise the post.

The products I can find affiliate programs for, I don't particularly want to write about as I don't think the products are that good. I'm not looking for the top commercialised products which everybody knows about - I want to really offer knowledge about the products which are hugely beneficial and effective that people don't know about but should know about, if that makes sense?

I'm not specialising in a complete brand range of products either, it is individual products which work for their specific purpose and unfortunately it isn't usually whole brand ranges which do that.

Any words of wisdom? Do you feel the same?

Feedback and comments gratefully received - I want to make 2021 the best it can be, Covid or no Covid!

I hope you all had a fantastic Xmas or as best as it could be under the circumstances. And I wish you all the best New Year ever - roll on the back of 2020!!