Cancer Really???

Breast cancer really... she is only 30 yrs old. This is the news that we received around two months ago about the mother of my grand babies and the wife of my oldest son. This on top of already living with a very severe autoimmune disease since she was 18 she and my son have been married coming up eleven years. Many things have happened since then. Two beautiful children and, many times in the hospital due to her disease.

Not sure what I was going to do.

After losing my job and while looking for another one I was able to work around the house finishing projects long ago started and cleaning up. My home was now becoming a place that I enjoyed being at. During those times, it was clear why I should get things done. And why I needed to be home. Because the best place for the kids was here with grandma on the ranch,during Becca's times in the hospital. I was also able to help with the kids while she was convalescing at home.

My purpose became clear.

This news came just as I started here at WA which makes more the reason I need to be at here and work from home. Being available for this beautiful family obviously was mine and Gods priority.
She is weeks past her last radiation, and now on the other side of a staph infection. She is in remission. Still dealing with the effects of the autoimmune disease. But improving every day.

Not always sure what Gods plans are.

There are times I must confess when we say ok Lord what are you doing. Then God reveals himself in the small things were we tend to think he is not there. While watching TV recovering from one of her extremely hard radiation treatments. My girl saw some yellow tulips. She then shared with the person with her. Look at those flowers aren't they beautiful.
My son was at the store buying, groceries to bring home. When looking over and seeing yellow tulips, he felt like he should buy them for his wife. Now keep in mind he never buys flowers except for the festive occasions that men buy flowers. He really was not aware of her desire.

God know the desires of our heart.

You can only imagine the shock and the tears that came, when his wife realized that God brought her flowers. I believe that God knows our every thought, and his ways are not our ways. When we see a muddled mess, God sees his plan. Being here at WA and being available for my kids right now, is where I am supposed to be.
Some people say that we see the back of the unfinished tapestry and God sees the magnificent finished front which is me and you
Not sure of all Gods plans, but one thing for certain I know he loves us.