My Chaotic Week
Ok so this is gonna be a bit long, sorry if this isn't the kind of stuff I should be posting on this blog, if it's not let me know and I won't post anything else like this.
So this week has been a doozy, My brother was rushed to the ER on the 10th (the ambulance took off with him without saying anything to my mom so we were all terrified...me moreso cause I already have trust issues with people).
Turns out he had an inflamed gallbladder and had to have it removed :(.
I was so scared cause he's like my whole world (I literally spend every waking moment that he's not at work with him...we often play games together usually from the time he gets home from work until he goes to bed so the thought I may lose him I couldn't even process.
That 1st night I wasn't even able to go to sleep until 11 something the following morning and that was only because exhaustion took over and forced me into sleeping.
I was terrified to go to sleep because I was worried when I woke up there'd either be news of his death (like with my grandma) or he'd be "non-existant"
I guess I should explain that "non-existant" worry... see 3-4 days prior I had a dream/nightmare that we were playing Minecraft together and he put his laptop down and left the room (his character was in the house he was building and I was across the way abit cutting down a tree, in the game). I thought he just went to the bathroom and just kept chopping the tree but after about 10 or 15 minutes he still hadn't come back so I hollered for him, "Donnie!?" no answer, a few moments later I hollered again "Donnie!" and suddenly my mom came in and said "What?" I said "Where'd Donnie go?" and she looked at me confused and said "who?" I was like "Donnie...my brother", she just stood in the doorway dumbstruck as if I was completely crazy and finally said "What are you talking about? You don't have a brother."
I was floored and said "YES I DO! we play games all the time together, he left the room, I thought to go to the bathroom but he never came back... I can prove it we were playing Minecraft see he's right here, (I took my character in the game back to the house where he'd stopped and to my dismay he wasn't there)... ok um... I know his credit cards" I logged out of Minecraft and went to DoorDash (when we order food he pays with his credit cards most of the time so I thought I could start an order and show mom his cards that pop up). No cards were on file...
WORLD OF WARCRAFT! I thought, This is the game we've played more than anything and a long time ago I made a guild just for us and all our many alts (because we're major hoarders in that game lol), I logged into my main character...his battle tag friend gone, the only characters in the guild were my own alts. I thought "This can't be happening" and then I woke up.
On another note I noticed today that my last post to my website had been a week ago and got kinda down, ever sense the stuff happened with my brother I haven't been in a "posting" mood but I do have some good news, he's back home now, he went to the ER on the 10th and they kept him until the 12th, even though it was only 2 days I was estatic to have him back home and I think it helped calm my mind.
On the 13th my mom shared a picture on Facebook and it gave me instant inspiration for a poem (something I thought I'd never have again), I don't think it's exactly appropriate for my website (not sure) but I would like to know what you think of it (I hope it's ok to post here)
This is the picture that gave inspiration
and this is the poem,
She Holds The Light
She holds the light within her hand
Gazing deep, how could it be
That the beauty there before her
So many mortals could not see?
The aura that it gave her
The shine that pierced her eyes
Snuffed out in an instant
Through so many broken cries.
Holding this light makes her happy
Such a bright amazing soul
But to make so many saddened
That was not her goal.
She's an angel of the Heavens
She collects souls who lost the light
And once she has them in her hand
They once again shine bright.
written @ 5:48am 1/13/2020
My mind also hasn't been able to shut off as I keep thinking of trying to "restart" this whole thing, or at least make that website about games that I was torn between in the beginning, I already have a great name, what I think would be a cool logo design, and sense I LOVE and live for games (of all kinds) I feel like I would be able to write about them so much easier AND the niche wouldn't be so hard to find affiliate programs for... believe it or not the Paranormal don't have a lot to choose.
What do you guys think, should I switch over to gaming or should I try to juggle both... can anyone give me opinions on whether it's hard to run 2 websites?
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My thought is that you should go with the niche about which you are most passionate. That way you will want to write and work on the site.
I agree with both answers below! I have several sites and none of them are doing well right now! This year I'm re-taking the training with only one site so I can concentrate better, then I'll either revive or retire the other sites! Just my two cents!
Hi Kristina
Glad to see that all has ended well with your brother. What a relief!
Thank you for sharing that beautiful poem.
From a monetization (and enjoyment) perspective, I would definitely go for gaming rather than paranormal, I think you answered your own question there really :-)
From what I understand, we should stick to one website until it is generating an income and then consider doing more than one. It seems to me that you need to be in a position where your first site is generating sufficient money so that you can outsource some of the work in order to start up more sites.
Blessings always
Louise
I am going to do two sites. I have my materials and It could hold on for the next 2 months. By then I would have for I do not stop my research and writing contents as reserves! I am going to make it or not at all!