I Must Be Out of My Mind

Good morning folks, haven't blogged for a while, in fact I've not been on the Wealthy Affiliate platform for a while or worked on my website either. In a nutshell I've had a couple of weeks off work from October, recommended by my doctor due to mixed anxiety and depression disorder, which once diagnosed came as a shock. I'm currently off work again now for another extended spell until the end of November and I'm trying to switch my head back on to Wealthy Affiliate and daily structure.

Lost

I've had some rough encounters since my thirties regarding stress, depression and the like and seems to only come about when I'm in overwhelming, stressful situations. My current place of work is my trigger this time around. I don't want to be there, I hate the place, hate the work and it doesn't fit my character well. The closer the end of my sick leave arrives, the more sense of dread I feel going back.

I'm in the process of actively looking for alternative employment even though my end goal is a passive income and working from my home. I'm in a very strange limbo situation as I've never really had a solid career path and have got a lot of transferable skills instead from various jobs and experiences. I can't just quit the current role as it's the money maker, even though I've toyed with the idea and have been tempted to.

My site created through Wealthy Affiliate hasn't made anything at the moment which after two years of creative work is very disheartening as I've mentioned a few times in my blogs. Because of this I can't just lean on this at the moment and don't have any other passive income coming in and so have to look for another job - but I have no path and aren't sure these days what I'm any good at or what skills and experiences of mine are useful. Just a little lost and so have sought help.

Reaching Out

I've been in touch with Healthy Minds, an organization who helps with depression disorders and assesses the level of the illness and refers you on to other support if needed, depending on your case and personal situation. ACT (Assertive, Commitment Therapy) will be in touch with me soon and they will be able to help and assist me discovering myself and my values, what matters to me, personal development, grant funded and free training etc. I've also contacted a Life Coach and paid for six sessions. The help here is to train my mind to think differently and help me along a new path, it's new to me but I'm soaking up what I can like a sponge and appreciate all the support.

Latest Activity

Today is the first day, of logging back onto Wealthy Affiliate after weeks of not being in the right frame of mind to tackle a "failing" website and niche idea. I'm going to start with small steps and try to get back on board, starting with some writing and this blog. I'll be finishing off my recent post as all the images aren't added too. I'll then be taking the next step in the training and tick off further boxes.

Once again as I've reported many times already, Amazon have pulled the plug on me again, this time from their dot com US site stating that in the time I've signed up for the associates account I've not made three sales. I could sign back up again and change the links that matter but I'm getting a little sick of it and the attitude of Amazon. You would have thought that ANY link to their goods on other sites is FREE promoting and shouldn't be hampered.

I've got to try to find my "mojo" again, work out some structure and keep this thing going. In 2018 I never even had a website built out to what I see today and I should be proud of the achievement. I may have to work towards getting Site Feedback and make sure I'm not flogging a dead horse. Surely I've been doing everything right? At this time folks I need all the support I can get so I can get a grip, clear my mind, the slate and gain traction with this investment I've committed to.