Top 200, One month In, and other thoughts

Last Update: January 05, 2015

Hey guys

I'm not really motivated to write this blog, but I'm going to write it anyways.

I've been On WA for a month now, and just got ranked in the Top 200 on exactly 1/3/15 (one month). It's a nice accomplishment and I'm proud of it.

I would like to thank all the people who I have connected with and who have helped me and supported me thus far.

I would also like to thank Kyle for putting so much time and effort into such an amazing program. I am still in shock over how valuable this stuff is. It's worth the monthly investment and then some.


I have been in a bit of a funk these last couple of days. I don't really know why, other than I'm unmotivated to do anything at the moment.

I'm starting to realize that the more I try and be a better person, the more obstacles will get in my way. This could be anything from the devil to everyday barriers, to psychological barriers, etc.

I made a lot of New Years resolutions, so I also think that I've put a lot on myself in 2015 as well. After keeping some of my resolutions from last year, I can see that anything is possible with the right mindset and a goal.

For instance, I made a resolution to stop complaining. This in turn causes me to become hyper conscious of every time I'm about to complain, thus making me realize HOW MUCH I COMPLAIN! I think we as human beings go through our day to day life un-aware of how much negativity can manifest from even the most minute situation.

Becoming a better person is not quite as easy as I thought it was going to be, and that's really what I'm getting at. Changing habits, dropping habits, and turning bad ones into good ones is an extremely difficult and time consuming process. Our minds have gotten so used to doing things the wrong way, that we become complacent and content with mediocrity. WITHOUT EVEN REALIZING IT.

It's almost like a form of brainwash. I was listening to this webinar yesterday about Time Management. It really opened my eyes in many ways. How much time do I really have, and how much of it am I wasting? We always complain that there are never enough hours in the day.

BOLLOCKS. There are plenty, but we don't realize it because half of those hours are spent slacking off or browsing the internet. He made a great point about the difference between busy work & productivity.

In the paycheck paradigm, (which we are all trying to escape), Many of our daily hours are already alotted for. Meaning, we don't even have to think about trying to be productive. We get up and go to work for 8 hours, and then come home. But there is really no such thing as "being productive" at a job. How many times have you tried to "look busy" so your managers wouldn't get on you?

Being productive is defined as doing things or tasks that yield the results you are looking for. Things that will aid in your ultimate goal.

Busy work is stuff that you do that you THINK is helping you to progress, but really is just a hindrance.


Trying to get out of our comfort zones psychologically is one of the scariest things that I can think of. Even right now I am starting to freak out. I feel as though I could have a panic attack at any second.

When it seems like the people around you (in the physical) are all progressing and you're stuck in first, it can be very draining. Comparing yourself to others. Draining.

But I'm not going to give up. Every negative thought must be countered with a positive one. Every day I must be better than the day before.

And I will leave it at that.

In Jesus name I pray,



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mwilly Premium
Amen brother, put Jesus first and everything will work out. It's not an easy thing being a Christian, but who wants to screw around with eternity. Congrats on your top 200 milestone.
StubearBlack Premium
Yeah it's tougher when you actually try to implement the bible and the word into your own life. Thanks for your kind words
mwilly Premium
aurelien29 Premium
the simple fact that you are becoming aware of all these things is a tremendous accomplishment buddy. That and the TOP 200 in a month ;)
Jesus would tell you that you just opened a door that no man can shut. Now all i can do is quote Joey Bada$$: "I won't stop until I reach Christ Conscious!"
you are well on your way to whatever you dream of and some more

StubearBlack Premium
Thanks Aurelien, always appreciate your support.
glycogen Premium
Don't worry Stu, we all have our moments. Not trying to dismiss your comments as I really do know what it's like to be down and feel you just cannot get up. Comparing yourself to others is a bad game. Do what you can and that's what you can do.
Personally I think you're doing terrific - just give things more time and it will all come together.
Best wishes. Glyn
StubearBlack Premium
Thanks Glyn. Feelin' a little more motivated
Larry MaC Premium
Very interesting observations.
StubearBlack Premium
thanks larry
gadifi Premium
nice work job well done
StubearBlack Premium
thanks gadifi