My Journey Through Dark Times
Last Update: November 26, 2015

I sit and appreciate the silence of an empty house, wow! Silence really is golden. This is a perfect opportunity I think to work on my blog and secure my future financial freedom, I must get to it; though without notice an ugly thought creeps it's way in to my noggin.

"You are being ridiculous, what makes you think the likes of you could ever be successful at anything; let alone making even a penny from your stupid little website. IT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN, NOT NOW NOT EVER!"

I try my damn hard to ignore this chronic voice, yet my excitement soon dissipates and begin to agree with this entity that what it's saying is true, clever is something I shall never be.

Now, let me just add that I'm not crazy as it only that one voice I hear; it's more a case of this dark and dank place that I'm in inside my head that brings on the fear. My depression you see has a habit of sticking around and all of the time it does hang about it's very quickly sucking valuable energy that could be used for better things.

Sometimes it is hard to wake properly from my slumber, often I can't even pick up my phone and dial a number. Hope is hard to come by at present, however with the energy I do have left I 'hope' to see myself bounce back and continue onward with my journey to financial freedom.

Thanks for reading

-Pete

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KatieMac Premium
We all suffer the wrangle with out inner self and have no go days however I cannot imagine what it is like to suffer badly with depression , when I get down I will put on uplifting music, or listen to some great people talk on TED I tend to find the winter months harder as its dark when you get up and late afternoon dark again,, I hope you manage a way through and manage to change that negative inner voice to a stronger and positive you.. take care
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Martstervt Premium
Hi Peter what we think has much to do with what we do. It is good to put positive things in your head to replace negative thoughts. I have to get rid of stinken thinken every day You are fearfully and wonderfully made. We all battle with the lie that we are inferior and incapable of accomplishing great things.

In reality, we have so much potential that is not tapped into that incredible things await all of us if we follow the correct path.
Reading positive books can replace the negative. Also this community
has many positive thinkers that conquer challenges every day.

Best wishes,
Marty
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Valie Premium
I know the feeling man. There was a time when when I gave up on WA and this whole internet marketing thing to be honest.

I walked away like a dog with its tail between its legs. Then something happened.

After a couple of months I logged into my affiliate network and saw that I made $400. I was shocked and when I looked at my Google analytics I saw that my traffic stayed constant.

It was then that I realized that I am now making a passive income from a website that I thought was worthless.

All I can say is that you should never give up and keep going. You will get there and if you invest enough time and energy into a plan, it will become a reality regardless of anything else.
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BenORourke Premium
You are not alone Pete, but here is a great post from Leo that may help clarify your thinking:

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Peter36 Premium
@BenORourke
Great read, thanks Ben :)
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