Angry and Annoyed! Help me?

And I would love some guidance and feedback from others.

So I love affiliate marketing, and since joining WA it feels like I have found a new way of life

BUT I am not making it with my affiliate website yet. I have 2 other websites that are product based that I had before I joined WA.

I struggled to learn how to work them, I struggled to learn how to do everything. It took me ages and I kept getting stuck and hitting new challenges. When I found WA I was doing ok.

Then when I found WA all the little pieces I hadn't put together fell into place, all the skill I had learned were fine tuned. The support I was lacking was suddenly found. This of course felt great..

Now I have an online baby store in South Africa with 2 websites. One for retail and one for wholesale.

The problem is that I have lost my passion for these websites in a way. I still love my websites but I don't want to hold products anymore, I don't want to have to be available all the time by phone, email and in person.

I just want to write...

So my retail store I have been blogging for a while and I have quite a lot of posts there but I have gone all quiet, focusing on my new WA website.

Sales in retail have gone quiet because the plan is to stop selling my own products. I want to just quietly kill retail and monetize my blogs.

The problem is the wholesale side. I love this side of it, and it is not a huge amount of work, and the orders are reasonably large. I just feel that lately all my suppliers are messing me around and everything is messing up. There are extra expenses all the time due to these stuff ups.

It got to me on Friday last week, I just snapped and lost it with someone... yes badly.

I don't mind things going wrong, but I do need people to answer their phones so that I can in turn give my customers feedback and keep them in the loop.

I'm tired of struggling and I'm tired of relying on other people when it is MY name on the line.

Here is my website I am talking about: http://kaboutjie.com/

and here are my blogs: http://kaboutjie.com/blog/

On Friday I took my wholesale website down I am so upset by the problems with my main suppliers... so there is nothing to see there.

http://wholesale.kaboutjie.com/

I'm not sure what I am wanting to know here, I suppose I am just floundering and very upset.

I'm not sure what to do about this, I'm starting to think F*** it....

I am just so tired of relying on other people and being disappointed. But where to from here and how to earn in the mean time?