I Am Failing

Last Update: January 30, 2020

I got off to such a great start this year, but here we are one day from February and I am failing.

Oh I know, I KNOW that the reasons for my failure are beyond my control right now and things will get better, thats what everyone will say, but that doesn't make the feeling any less painful.

I have been doing the SAC and we are into Month 7 - Failure

Ironic isnt it that, that should be the title of the month and I am sat slap bang in the middle of failure. Im not keeping up with my routines, things are slipping week by week. I should have several video blogs up by now, articles written... but I am getting further and further behind. Its getting me down. I feel I am letting Kyle down by not living up to my promise that I would do the SAC for the full year... I am DETERMINED not to let Kyle down.

I feel that the reasons I am struggling are just excuses, that I should be stronger and deal with it. That I waste time that I should be working.

Im away in the USA with my boy, looking at schools. He has been offered tennis scholarships and we are going to different schools so he can decide which is the best fit. Two days in each place, two flights to get to each place. Its tiring. Im still trying to recover from knee surgery and to add insult to injury, when I contacted my surgeon about my slow recovery, the secretary got my diagnosis wrong and told me the reason for my continued issues was because I had significant arthritis !!! Im young...! This devastated me for two days until the surgeon corrected it.. I do not have arthritis.

I know that these things are beyond my control, and it will improve but I so want to be successful and that success is dependent on me keeping to schedule.... Im so frustrated by situations I cannot control.

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Specialk3749 Premium
Part of the failure is your attitude! When you keep telling yourself you are failing, you will. Reverse this, tell yourself the "good" that you are doing! You are helping your son right now and that is very important...don't fail him There is power in words and thoughts! So, start thinking about success and telling yourself you will succeed and you will!
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Helen123 Premium
A great suggestion and one that I am adopting right now. I will be back in Spain on Friday and back to a normal routine so until then I am not worrying!
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MWilkinson2 Premium
I'm there with you. I've had a lot of obstacles that have come in my path. I'm behind in all of my WA goals: articles, training - all of it. But, I keep reading these wonderful articles and continue taking one step at a time - even if they're teeny, tiny steps. Even if you're standing still, that's better than slipping backward.

:o)

Blessings,
Michelle
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Mhart9 Premium
Hi Helen.....sorry to read your story and how things are going for you ....I ve had my struggles also and still do ....I've a small business that takes most of my time for so little reward .....a child with adhd and another with autism.
I'm facing financial ruin at the moment ....like you it's pretty damn tough....but and there is a but.....I look to find any one thing that helps me to be positive......I too keep falling backwards..... but step back and and give yourself some space ...think about the life you want...take time to re access things.
I think that the way this program been developed it allows us to keep our selves accountable to the community and the people who have developed it .....now that is positive for me it keeps me in line...I feel that my progress is too slow but there is only so many hours in the day.
But I d prefer to take my time and get it right than rush through it ....you are not alone ...at times it feels like it (trust me) ....but your not .
You have come quite a distance keep going be strong ....you are stronger than you give yourself credit ! I wish you all the very best ....I'm now following you ....regards mick
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Helen123 Premium
Thank you Mick for taking time to comment. I see you are having a tough ride too, but you are right, it is doing that little thing every day that moves us forward. I have been travelling the last two days so sorry for the delayed response. But Im here and still trying. My travels come to an end on Friday.. so I hope to make inways from there.
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Mhart9 Premium
Big smile ....onwards and upwards ...
Regards mick
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BruceStephen Premium
The point Helen is that you feel you are failing and if you think you are then you have the ability to try and get back on track. When you keep on trying you are not a failure.

You are only a failure when you give up completely.
Regards Bruce
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Helen123 Premium
No quitting here. I’m a WA’er through and through..
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BruceStephen Premium
Way to go Helen.
Regards Bruce
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EHozubin Premium
Helen - All the issues are pilling up right now causing you to lose control. Make a priority list and attack one at a time. When get to SAC go back to the training videos and do one step at a time until you get through. You are flustered right now and you need to slow that down. Keep a positive attitude and you will get back on track.
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