Conquering the obstacles

(first of all, please excuse every mistake I will be making in my English)

oke.. like I said, hhmmm... where will I begin?

Obstacles : English - Internet - Marketing knowledge - Social media - mental block - breakfast (wait, what?)

ENGLISH :

Imagine your self communicate in other language, Spanish for example.. let's say you speak Spanish a bit, write in Spanish one or two with mistakes here and there, know a few about Spanish grammar, ok, now you with me?

Right now it's ME : an Indonesian, speak English a little bit, write in English once a while, making mistake all over the paper, know a few grammar (past-present-future tenses, idioms, etc), and like blinking eyes, suddenly I found my self here, at WA, trying to write a blog (really?) -----> obstacle 1.

INTERNET :

All this time I only used internet for checking my mails, maybe once a week since I don't have many email correspondence, surfing online maybe once in few days, looking for info mostly about daily problems, you know, medicines, kids homework, ideas for meal, etc.

So internet for me it's just nothing but a tool for making my life a bit easier, that's it. Maybe that's why I don't have any eager to learn about buttons at internet page, what to click, where the click goes, what this click for (sssttt.. I even confuse about all those button down this page, you know the blue one with sign 'Add Tag', green one says 'Success Post'.. really, I'm lost) all of them just giving me headache -----> obstacle 2.

MARKETING KNOWLEDGE :

What is marketing? Well, I know markets only by letter. In my daily basis market for me are : farmers market, traditional market, mini market, department store, garage sale, you know just a place we buy something, pay for it, maybe get lower price once a while (after few minutes bargained with the owner) and left, that's it, very simple. So, what is marketing? Better yet : internet marketing? I DON'T KNOW! I have know knowledge about it, left alone sell something in the internet (having this question for my self, I feel like an alien living in this big world call 'Internet') -----> obstacle 3.

SOCIAL MEDIA :

I considered my self a very private person, I didn't have any social media account, I feel reluctant writing about who I'm, what I'm doing, where I live, what's my hobbies, anything about my self won't be anywhere in this world of anonymous. Everything about me it's only for me and me alone. I tried a few times to post my profile in social media, but minutes after I feel naked when it cross my mind that some others probably read it, maybe even negative bout it, then I deleted my profile in a hurry, check-out, feel safe knowing that me and my self won't be out there getting ready becoming some else 'sand sack', you know what I mean?

But once I found my self landing here at WA, where all the people have the same achievement, they are mostly nice, they speak nothing but kind words, encouragement, support one another and 100% bully free, all the sudden I feel safe to post my photos, my profile, where I live, even write a blog! Am I already conquering my social media paranoia? Hhmmm... nuh, not yet! Why? Well (please forgive me for saying this : I created an FB account under an alias 2 days a go! What a sin!) so?-----> obstacle 4.

MENTAL BLOCK :

(I don't mean any negative or whatsoever by saying this) but in my country, well at least in my school years (so, so, soooo sorry for all of my teachers back then) in school, we wore the same outfit from head to toe, we have to sit well in class, behave our selves, listen to the teacher only, not interrupted nor making any sound, rise your voice only when the teacher ask you to, otherwise the teachers will kick you out of the class just by doing a tiny mistake. At home? Not so different from school. Parents are gods! They never wrong, we have to worship everything they say, don't rise your voice to them, don't stare them in the face, etc. In society? Even worst! I can go on and on and on about everything that I struggled with .. well, got the picture here? Bare with me, ok? It's a very long blog of mine.

So, to make story short, we or in this case me, did not allow by my surroundings to be different! They conservative mind not allow me be who-what-where I wanna be! So, here I'm today trying to conquer my mental block, joining WA community, surfing more in the internet, open-up my self bit by bit, hope I'll be there soon (but still, I don't even mentioned any of this WA stuff to my friends yet, couse I'm afraid they will laugh at me saying : what a useless thing to do).. see what is this mental block for me? ------> ok, obstacle 5.

(last but not least) BREAKFAST :

Wait, what? he, he, he, he.. You know, I'm sitting here for almost two and half hours sweating my self trying to make my first perfect blog in every single way (the English, the grammar, the spelling, the line, the story, bla, bla, bla..), well, I found my self starving because I haven't eat my breakfast yet!

So, I hope you all enjoying my very first onion layer peeling of my self while I'm gonna enjoying my Indonesian breakfast, nasi goreng (fried rice) and find my way to conquering every obstacles that I've just mentioned before.

Oh, one more thing, please feel free becoming my English critics, I will be very appreciated if any of you would spare a second to write me back and give me some English lesson.

This Wealthy Affiliates is my class room almost about everything and you all will be my teachers also in almost about anything.

Jadi, sampai bertemu lain waktu (so, I'll see you some other time).. Byyeeeeee...