Feeling Just A Little Frustrated I Changed How I Feel By Changing My Thoughts
Do you ever have those days when you just can't seem to get on with things? I've been feeling like this for weeks now. I have been totally unable to concentrate on my websites and training. How does one get past these feelings? By changing their perception of what seems to be a negative and focusing on the positive.
I'm a carer which is always time consuming, but we also had a few extra events to fit into my schedule recently, which is haphazard at the best of times while I fit in my course and work on my sites into little tiny time slots in between the responsibilities of my caring role. The trouble is those time slots just aren't big enough to get on with anything of quality. My daughter has been in need of a bit more care this week because she has been ill. I was supposed to get some time out because she and her boyfriend planned to be going out a bit over the past week and leaving me to my own devices at home. I rubbed my hands together with delight as I contemplated the thought that I would finally get some work done. They didn't end up going because she was ill, so I didn't only lose the time I was going to get, I had to spend extra time helping her and caring for her. Then when I thought I could finally sit down for a bit, she was calling me for Reiki quite a few times among other needs. I am so glad that I can help her with Reiki. I'm not glad that she was sick though. It does however add up to major frustration especially when I get all these great ideas for content and can't get to writing them up. I find myself asking how can I get myself back into the zone and quickly too?
So what else has been happening to contribute?
Oh yes. First it was my 50th birthday Star Wars theme party to organise and celebrate just before Christmas, very draining. But we did a really good job, especially with decorations and the themed food and everyone enjoyed themselves, so on the whole the event was a success. I got to spend time with my friends who I have been struggling to find time for lately. The only downside here was that it was not long enough, but I know they all care about me regardless of whether I can catch up with them as often as I'd like to or not. Oh and also my precious elderly Mum did not realise my hair was a wig on the night and kept laughing at me and telling me she didn't like my hair like that. My daughter made the Artoo Detoo cake.
Next we had Christmas at our house only a few days later, so more preparation, but it was such a lovely day in the end and not too hot. On top of my own family, I had my sister, brother-in-law and niece, my mother, and my brother and his fiance who came up from Sydney to share it with us. So while we had a lot of work to do beforehand, afterwards cleaning up, and on the actual day with much cooking and hostessing, the food was good, the company was great and everyone had a wonderful family day together.
A couple of weeks after this, we had a wedding and an 80th birthday Gatsby High Tea the very next day with lots of running around. My brother got married on the beach, which was my first beach wedding I have ever attended. It was windy unfortunately so I was getting sand in my eyes, and the poor bride was suffering too, but what a fantastic setting it was. Absolutely stunning and it was worth getting sand in our eyes to see my brother get married. You see we've waited a long time for this, firstly for him to recognise that he was not happy in a prior long-term relationship, and that he had never agreed with the concept of marriage, and secondly that he met someone who could change his mind. We've gained a new sister in law and adore her.
My mother turned 80 the next day and we had planned a big event for that too. An English high tea for her in full Gatsby garb for many of us, at a lovely tea room set in a beautiful lush green valley. This took a lot of organising between the family members on the actual day and lead up to it. Dressing all of my family, and Mum several times, in a hot muggy house with everyone being so sticky from it was an interesting experience. Lots of work yielded the result that my mum and our large family had a very memorable day together to celebrate my Mum's life. This is my daughter and I.
My granddaughter has been on school holidays for quite a few weeks, and I was busy trying to clean up and tidy up my home because I don't get a lot of hours to spend on moving furniture around and re-organising bookshelves etc during the normal school year. I used the time between Christmas and New Year and the following weeks to give the place a very overdue spring clean. So I shouldn't be too frustrated because this has been bugging me for many months and I find it easier to think and concentrate better when my house is in order. I'm always saying messy house, messy mind so I'm extra glad I spent the time doing these things so that I can start this new year off with a bang and a clear head.
I've also been compiling or completing my sessions that need to be logged for me to qualify in my alternative healing modalities so that I can start building a clinic in the fields that I have chosen to work in once I can be freer from my current situation.
Wow, when I look at it this way, I really have accomplished a lot in these weeks and should be congratulating myself instead of feeling frustrated. When I started writing this blog, it was really about venting my frustrations. I turned it into something to be proud of, a positive experience instead of thinking about the negatives from when I started writing it. So as frustrating as it has been, I have shown myself how to not feel upset with myself for not achieving more and be happy knowing that I can start this year feeling more uplifted than I have in a long time. I remembered, after forgetting to use them in this whole time I have been working on everything else but WA, that I have my Wholetones frequency music that I blogged about on my Carer's Loft website. I decided to put it on in the background part way through this blog so that I can tune out other distractions and get on with it. So that's what I did. So I answered my other question too here, about what can I do about getting myself back into the zone.
I hope if you too are feeling frustrated, that you will think about things in a different light and see that even though things get in the way of what you are trying to do with your endeavours here, don't think that these things are problems, they are accomplishments to be proud of, one more thing crossed off your to-do list so to speak.
Take care and happy blogging