Have taken a hiatus. Again. I feel a bit lost
So I've taken a somehow forced break as I had to take care of my little one (he's starting to crawl) and take care of the house a bit more, my husband is helping out but baby is at that stage I believe they warned me a while ago called "separation anxiety".
During those quiet times while breastfeeding I read my feed of new post of successful stories, I feel really happy for all of you who day by day are getting good results.. On the other side I feel worry creeps back as I wonder if I'm being left behind.
I know it's not a race nor a competition, yet I feel like I was going to a good pace until recently, now I'm like ages behind. While I look to the right side of the monitor, the numbers on the little blue square pile up. It makes me think...
I used to be so proud to jump few hundreds or even a thousand numbers once in a short time, now I'm not sure if I became a bit obsessed. I understand (I think) that it has a good intention, yet for a moment it didn't look that good to me, I became a bit of a slave to it, part of the fault is mine to have a bit of a competing nature. Reading that people who started the same month, and now owning a well packed and a website to envy, doesn't help.
I hope nobody thinks I'm just moaning. Maybe I am a bit. I hope that whoever reads this post please, do your best, but also please remember (as I am repeating to myself right now) that it's not about getting to the finishing line (there's is none as such in this!), it's about enjoying the process and to learn as much as one can!
Well, I'll get back to brainstorming a post... But before I do, here's a quote from one of my favourite movies of all time "Three idiots" (bollywood movie but believe me an aye opener!):
"Pursue excellence, and success will follow" Rancho.
All the best to all of you,