2. A Cancer Spartan - My Testimony
As most, before the cancer diagnosis almost 4 years ago; I had a career, nicely furnished place, and car. Also very active, 'liked', with hundreds of friends, had plenty of freedom and fun. Yet, for almost two years, while at the worse times of this forced daily battle trenches and arena; I was on my own. Not one person, for whatever their reason, ever stayed with me. Most of the time I found my self as many now find themselves. Cold, hungry, in shock, scared, and conviniently; judged. To tell you I am, along many others are walking miracles, it is a 110% true. I was not suppose to make it out of this one, alive. And believe me, have been thru plenty close calls, to know.
It took me over a year, to shake off the ink like saturation and poison that surrounds death, curses, and ill-will along with cancer; to realize I was now a new creature and had God and his realm by my side. Sure, some came or called once or twice a year. Yet, when lime lights, emergencies are no longer present; or death comes calling daily. What most of us hear, is its mockery and beyond sad empty echoes. I felt at peace though; knowing many truly wanted me to make it. Plus had the catch 22 circumstance of having no husband, children or parents. to leave behind.
Being why this is one of my callings. If I who have always been an optimist and life's survivor, barely could withstand this... How could most? Think a drop of ink, in a clear glass of water... Your old life is completely saturated by darkness, and snatched far away and gone. Being why my need to visit, defend and acknowledge; the chronically ill, elderly, forgotten' ones or scarlet lettered. It is one of my potent motivations and drive. I have been there... I know. And know it is one of the main reasons, millions decide to make it easier on everyone; And just let go. Feel as if already won though. Deep in my essence, I am at my peak. And now in compassion; see how weak and yet strong we all are, and really on the same boat. To awake every single day, and without a doubt knowing who truly saved me and therefor belong; That was worth it all. So grateful for that. And having survived 22 chemo treatments, 5 major life saving surgeries and 33 radiation sessions. As we strive to squash, if to the Most High's will, all breast and colon cancer. I now let the rays of healing, cover me each new day.
Even if homeless for almost 2 years. I keep dealing with this leprosy-like academy, and it's cruel and relentless aftermaths. Where silence and smiles; are key. I am still, supernaturally blessed. Last year alone, was in 23 places &/or my car when still had wheels. All of it, living out of bags while struggling after two major surgeries. Or worse; when deemed as lazy, exaggerating or weak. Nothing is further from the truth! it is so easy, when the pain it is not one's own... How can any human survive this and more? Love. And it is divine.
Yet, we are all the same in a hospital bed. And 2 things make us equals: Love & Pain.
Being why I voice the popular expression 'survivor', it is not descriptive enough. Spartans! And full on gladiators and warriors; is what we are, and more of a fit. Why many beam with joy: We are still above that constant calling and cold pit. With unmovable self-esteem, ease and purpose. So, even when literally crawling everywhere and dying; plus cursing, blessing, and apparently wasting away as laying down... I knew my best was yet to come! I have been touched by unmovable love. And now w/ huge concepts and in progress; prosperous projects to fulfill.
Pray to see the day; when the pain and resources of one, is the pain and resources of all. Therefore, let's stay blessed. We are breathing after all! Remembering: We matter as-is. So let's go where cherished and celebrated; and not barely tolerated. Practicing unconditional self-love and heart forgiveness; and detoxing people, food, and situations. We just might, be rewarded with a rich life. Advancing success to us all. Your fellow wealth and life warrior, Elizabeth.
*More thorough testimony & photos, in most media platforms as: Traveling Hugs.
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Thank you, Elizabeth, for the acutely perceptive, penetrating and relevant way in which you expressed your battle and victory over a disease that tried its best to rob you of joy and peace. Very few understand the effect that cancer can have both on our body and soul.
Thank God for the gift of the indomitable human spirit that he gave to all. Yet only a few dare to become a Spartan Life Warrior as you have done. You are remarkable and you have an awesome, inspiring and remarkable life ahead of you. Write on that your gift may inspire and enlighten others.
I send my my prayers and God's blessings of health and healing to you. ~Rebecca
Hello Rebecca. So strange... I had replied in a long message a while back. Please know I so appreciate your generous words and life giving comment. Taken to heart and sent back to you full of blessings and ten fold. Yes sister, the main reason our soul fights and mostly what our spirit craves, is to make Him proud. Your decree and declarations of healing are gratefully received, Elizabeth
What a wonderful testimony! You have a real gift for writing. I think you will do wonderfully here.
Hello Michelle! So strange... I had replied a while back and don't see my comment here. Please know I so appreciated your encouraging words and life giving comment. I has been taken to heart and sent back to you full of blessings and ten fold. Elizabeth
Thanks for such a moving testimony, Elizabeth. You light the way for so many who follow your trail, blazed with faith, love and commitment!
Your confirming and kind words = life. Thank you tjud14. So good to know my true motive or compassion and inspiration, it is what comes accross. May your blessed good will towards me, be returned 10 fold. Elizabeth
Thank you for your honest testimony and thank God for you faith and healing. May He continue to be your source of strength and refuge. Abundant blessings to you.
Yes, Mustard seed... Declaring and believing; I am healed in body, mind and spirit. Peace, joy and courage, are now my daily companions and gifts to any near by. As you I am sure and many, my main goal is to make our innate source and maker; Proud. Thanks again! And may your good will and wishes be in a grandiose way multiplied.
Hi. I will not pretend to know that I understand all that you have experienced. But your honesty here and sharing your story is humbling and shows us what is important. You experience things so deeply and write about it so well. Thank you for the perspective you have provided, Elizabeth. Give me a shout if you ever need help with anything as you have helped me greatly today.
Wow Mr Jantz... I think you left me as speechless and richer, as maybe I left you. Thank you for the reach out and encouragement. For over 3 years I have kept quiet. Because as you hinted; no one knows what is really like. No more. God has put it in my heart, to be. if only one more voice to the voiceless, and for those no longer here or lost by giving up. Who have been shut down; by death, others, 'life', cruelty or lies. With the hope that by chance, they might hear their own soul's echo in my love. Or for a mind to be adjusted or heart be moved. Every day is a new beginning. And a good day to help or hug a Spartan, a 'forgotten' or marginalized one if you can... Blessings!
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I m speechless.... The best I read since long time . I wish you the best of the best . Izi
Hello Mr IZI. So strange... I had replied in a long message a while back. Please know I so appreciate your generous words and life giving comment. Taken to heart and sent back to you full of blessings and ten fold. Elizabeth