Thoughts on a summer morning

Hiya friends,

It's been awhile since I blogged here, and quite frankly, struggling with what to write about. I don't want to write about coffee or my trip to Florida or my son's graduation or any of those other personal experiences because I'm not sure that is really relevant here.

I don't want to blog about how I am trying so desperately to get my site off the ground and ranked -- or how I am trying to gain traffic by any means possible -- or how exhausting this is, and how discouraged I am feeling. I don't want to blog about that because it is a downer and I feel like it compares me to all the other successful people here.

My site stats have improved, -- see the screen shot below -- but if this is any indication of how things are going, it will be another few years before I see any significant income.

This is better than it was a couple of months ago, but not nearly what it should be.

I don't want to blog about the fact that I have spent SO many hours working on my site -- about 20 hours a week, that it has taken me away from running my graphic and web design business, and now I am struggling to pay my bills. So I'm not making money there, and I'm not making money here.

Working full time has me at a HUGE disadvantage, as compared to other success stories here, and that is very disconcerting to me.

Anyway, maybe I need to blog about changing my mind-set, and knowing that a change in perspective may be a good thing. I can't over-generalize or compare myself. There will always be people who are more successful than me, and there will always be people who are less successful, and what's the point of the comparison, anyway? It just serves to make me feel bad.

So, not sure if anyone has noticed that I've been quiet, but this is why -- just struggling to figure this all out.

Thanks for reading,

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