Affects Of Trust In One's Life

I came up with a revelation recently. I think I have an issue regarding trust. I thought about it more and more over the past week when during the time when we were discussing what my sister should do about treatment for her cardiac condition. Every time something was discussed I was very skeptical. I had to have every detail and every pro and con for whatever they were suggesting.

I realized that I do that with my own doctor. I never agree to anything or any medication that he suggests unless I know everything about it and why it was suggested. I am a horrible patient, but my doctor has just put up with me and he knows that eventually I will probably agree with it. He never pushes me. He just gives me the answers and down the road I will make a decision.

This mistrust probably came from education. I have to know how something works and why something is as it is. Only then will I make a decision. Learning how something functions and works is a part of what a registered nurse is taught. Only then do I understand why a procedure is ordered and done. Registered nurses are taught this and not just how to do a procedure. The Licenesed Practical Nurse is taught the technique of something and learns to do it very well. However, she is not taught all of the ins and outs and is not put in a position where she has to figure something out and make the decision.

However, I do have to say that I have always asked how, and why as I have always needed to know all of this before I could make a decision and trust someone. My mother always said that I was one of those people that has to find out for herself, and that is true. I would not even take her word for something. I had to try it myself before I would believe her.

This may be a good thing, but maybe not. As I said I trust very few people. I have to understand it myself and check it out myself first. It does make it difficult at times. Even as I am working on the Challenge, I still am not sure that it is going to work, but I am trying to make it work. It makes it easy to give up at times, but I guess I am still in the process of finding out for myself. It would be so much better if I could just put my trust in the process.

Well, anyway, I am still not doing a lot right now as my sister is still in peril. I think she and the family have decided that she should have open heart surgery, but it is still very scarey as she has so much else wrong with her. She has been move to Mass General in Boston which is 5th in cardio-thoracic surgery and they are quite encouraging and positive, which is one of the first places where they have been as reassuring. Anyway, I am trying to do a little when I can as I want my site to be successful.