yesterday's blog entry

byveronagirl

115 followers

6 years ago

Hi guys,

I wanted to sort of apologize for how the blog entry came out yesterday.

I have some medical conditions that have been acting up this week including bipolar disorder, been going through a lot of tough things lately and that comment thing was sort of the catelist that triggered depression.

When i get down, I tend to get very down on myself and the thought of giving up and quitting is prominent. Normally, I am no quitter. When I am feeling ok and medications/everything else is stable in my life I never give up. I always say that...as John Cena says never give up. But when my depression hits me is when I have negative thoughts of wanting to give up.

I surely won't, because I do know that if I give up I will get nowhere.

I am struggling with remembering friends who have passed on, and also things around me and my boyfriend's house haven't exactly been ok with the family lately, we're all going through a tough time here at the house. i don't always know how to express myself properly which is why it may look like I am seeking pity when I am not. A lot of times it is just me venting and getting my thoughts down on perverbial paper. I don't mean to push anyone away or anything, it's just sometimes, in a word, bipolar sucks!

In some ways I am proud to have aspergers, the creativity it sparks and the fact that I am very smart. But there are some downsides as awell and when I am depressed I see more of the downsides because, well, it does that to you.

I just wanted to let you guys know that no, I am not giving up. No, I won't leave the site or anything drastic like that. I was just very depressed is all.