Perspective and Appreciation

Normally I don't do these little pick me ups. They don't usually have much of an impact on me, and I seem to gravitate more to like minded people.

This week has been different, though. Due to a couple of unfortunate events, by ex-boss called me a week ago and ask me to fill in for 3 days this week and 2 days next week. I talked it over with my Mom, and made accommodations in order to help her get through the first 3 days, and told my boss I would do it.

I only retired, so to speak, 6 or 7 months ago, so you wouldn't think it would be that big a deal. My job is operating printing presses which mostly involves standing in one place for long periods of time, or at least the duration of a day.

The first day was alright, but the second day I was physically tired. Even though I work hard here at the house, it's just not the same. I've gained weight sitting here at the computer, and my back didn't appreciate the strain that my chair has been putting up with. That has to change. I started working out the day after Christmas, though it'll have little to no effect next week.

In any case the point is, for at least 2 of the 3 days I worked this week, I was miserable, just like I was before I quit last May. I suspect I will be just as miserable next week for the remaining 2 days I've obligated myself. The money will help, but overall, I want to remember and keep in the front of my brain this experience so I keep in perspective why I do what I do now.

I never want to lose my appreciation for the opportunity I am afforded now because I never want to go back.

And that's all I have to say about that.