Saying Goodbye

Last Update: March 02, 2018

Today was a sad day for me. As I write this my dad is laying in a hospital bed with his brain bleeding. It happened this morning, and I live in another state, he's in Florida, and I am in Tennessee. Tomorrow I travel to say goodbye to him and make the decision to let him go, as I am the oldest of three son's.

Yesterday, I was writing that the hardest thing for me to do is to step out of my comfort zone and the supper affiliate challenge is helping me to do it.

Tomorrow the hardest thing I will have done is tell the doctor to turn off the machine that keeps my father here with me. Right now, as I write this, I am a stranger to you all, and I am sharing a very personal thing with you, so I guess you could say that I am changing. I would never have done this just months ago.

Here is something I want to share and its a regret that has hit home for me. If you have loved ones that are still with you. Call them up and say hi, do it often for you just never know when this is going to happen. My dad was only 800 miles away, and I did not take the time to talk to him on a regular basis. Now I'm going to walk into a room tomorrow and say goodbye and tell the doctor to let him go.

Right now that is my regret in life; tomorrow it may be something else I don't know. Say hello, say I love you and give a hug if you're able, you won't regret it.

I'll probably be taken a break from the supper affiliate challenge for a couple of weeks. I am sure I'll have a lot to catch up on when I get back, I'll be back though I'm not giving up. Thanks for all the help I appreciate it.

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DBlanchard Premium Plus
Deeply sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you and your father!
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tgray143 Premium
Thank you its a very hard time for my family, especially me for some reason. I appreciate your kind words.
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JeffreyBrown Premium Plus
My prayers are with you--be strong!

Jeff
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tgray143 Premium
I'm trying this was out of know where he wasn't even sick but apparently had an aneurysm the doctors never discovered. One of the things about my dad was he hated going to the doctors. Wish I had pushed him more. Thank you for your kind words.
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grkuria Premium
Thank you for sharing your life with us. WA community interact with one another so much until we feel like we are one big family. The connection is so strong in such a way that we even feel like we know each other and when one member has low moments, we feel the pain they are going through. This is a time for you to be with your Dad and you will still catch up with Super Affiliate challenge when you come back. We are all here to help one another.
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tgray143 Premium
You are so correct; this is my outlet, I thank God that he has brought WA into my life at this time. I am slowly working my way back into the challenge, using it to keep me busy. I miss him though, but I do know he is at peace, I just feel it. Thank you for your kind words of encouragement
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NicoAlpaca Premium
Difficult decision. Take the best decision for your father. You will feel much better. Focus while you travel and make important decision when you get there. Be in peace. I feel for you. Nicole
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tgray143 Premium
In my 56 years on this planet, I can say it was and is the most difficult words I have had to speak from my mouth. God made it easy though there was no brain activity and it would have been very selfish to keep him with me. He is at peace, and I have a guarding angel watching over my family now. Thanking you for taking the time to stop by.
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CraigKnight Premium
Wise words. I am deeply sorry about your loss Timothy. My families prayers will be with you during your travels and difficult times ahead.

Be careful sir.
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tgray143 Premium
Thank you so much. I still think each morning when I wake that it was just a bad dream, but then reality comes slamming back, and I realize he's gone and up in heaven. I'm still mourning him but I'm glad he is not in any pain and looking over my family. He is where he is supposed to be. I know that in my heart now. I just have to accept it and get back to business. Trying to keep me busy until that day comes. Thank you for stopping by.
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