How’s Life Going?
Do you ever get these sort of messages or even thoughts and you just don’t know how to answer them?
I have been dealing with a lot these last couple weeks. These past few days have been emotionally rough for me.
You see, I’m currently living with my dad and he’s an alcoholic. I have been giving him money in the past without knowing about this issue and he still owns me a lot of money. He has been getting on my nerves all this week and I’ve been carrying a headache for the last 3 days that doesn’t seem to go away.
I can barely think straight without having a complete breakdown. Being emotionally vulnerable is so exhausting. Everything gets to you and you can’t seem to figure anything out.
I honestly can’t find the words to describe how life is going for me because if I’m being honest, I can’t remember a day in my life where I’ve felt at peace or happy. I struggle so much and I just want to feel like I matter or that I’m actually important and not just someone who you can drop all your baggage and then leave.
How is life treating you? Are you getting enough sleep? Are you drinking enough water?
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You do matter! And although you can't change others, thankfully we can change ourselves. So let's commit to changing ourself so that it changes your situation and develop the blueprint that your wanting for your life.
Your in a great place to do these things here at WA. Absorb yourself in taking action and you'll be changing your life and situation very soon. I have already seen your writing getting better since you've been here. Keep going. I know you can do it!
Brian
Brian, thank you so much for your encouragement. It means a lot to me. I’m trying my best but it can be overwhelming to sit down and write when your mind it’s not in a good place. I’m trying though, so that’s important I guess.
This is the toughest question today... having some one you love with an addiction has to be soooooo hard... so exasperating ... as you want the best for them more than they do for. Themselves
I’m not an expert or a counselor ... but you are worth from what I’ve seen a great deal more ... I pray you’ll find some relief
You can private message if you just need some one to listen ... I’m a good listener
Tim
I hope you find answers to your situation and strength to cope with it. I wish I knew how best to advise you.
From what I have seen in your contributions here I can tell that you have great potential, you really matter, and you are definitely important.
I will be thinking about you, as will all your friends here 💛
I am truly sorry to hear about this tough situation. Me personally, my father left when I was 19 and I still sometimes struggle to be a strong minded individual. I can tell you though that it gets easier and that YOU ARE IMPORTANT! Love yourself first and in time I truly believe you will be able to power through!! Im always here if you need words of encouragement!!
I am so sorry to hear about that. You know what, you are strong and you’re managing so well so far. Fighting all of these feelings each day can be challenging but we’re still here, and that sometimes is what matters the most. I am always here as well if you ever need anything!
Stephanie,
Sorry to hear you are going through these difficult times. Alcoholism is a substance use problem and living with a parent facing this is very challenging.
You have done the right thing by opening up and talking about it. If you have someone like a good friend locally that would be great. Talk to them as you may need help going through this.
Reach out to others for safety, help, and support. This is an important step as you may not be able to overcome this alone.
Your goals would be:
- Find a support group
- Find a safe place
- Stop the cycle
A good support group may provide all 3 above.
Last but not least, Know that it's not your fault. Don’t blame yourself for your parent's substance use.
- Stanley
Thank you so much for this, Stanley!
I’ve barely been living here for the last 2 years. I moved out of my hometown. All of my friends are from around the world (that might sound crazy but yes, I only have Internet friends, they can be just as supportive as any other every day friend)
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My father was one and his father also! When I was six or seven, we go visiting his father. All I remember was him sitting in front of me with a drink in one hand and a cigar in the other, having a party filled time and swearing!
My father changed when he drank. You're familiar with Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. In my father's case, it was Dr. Jekyll and his ?itch and he could be warlike, that side of him appeared one Christmas Eve at the grandmother's house. He passed away from Liver Disease a few years ago, died slowly by his own hand.
I am concerned about you! Is there a church, some place that you can go to or call AAA and speak with someone about this? Maybe you go for a walk during a day, something that will BURN the stress away! Your health is important and so are YOU!
Remember what YOU have accomplished so far! Do what you can to maintain your health! Me? I sleep when I can and water is my main beverage!
I am so sorry to hear about that, Ryan. Living with addicts is such a draining and scary thing. Im so sorry about your dad but I am glad that you’re managing so far.
I’m not afraid of my father. I’ve barely been living with him for two years and he knows that if he does anything I’ll call the police. My mother was an alcoholic and also abused drugs, so I know how that path goes. I’m not going to drain myself with his issues. I just wish I could be more heartless instead of varying too much or overthinking everything all the time.
I am sorry that I didn't know that you were stressed out from two sides than one.