The Never-Ending Website Finally Launched - Why I Almost Quit & What Made Me Know I Couldn't

byRaven9

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Updated 8 years ago

Life has a way of throwing you for a loop, sending situations your way and presenting you with circumstances that you could never expect, even when you think you have life under control. The only comfort in all this is believing that there is a 'divine timing' to it all, and having faith that life really does play out in a certain way for a certain reason.

“It’s impossible,” said Pride. “It’s risky,” said Experience. “It’s pointless”, said Reason. “Give it a try,” said the HEART.

We loosely made the decision to work for ourselves back in 2013 when we formed an import/export business in order to send farming equipment to Nicaragua. At the time we still had the security of my husband having a j.o.b. At the beginning everything seemed so promising, but fast forward a few years, and family members we had trusted stole from us, my husbands employer screwed him around for 2 months wage, and I had a newborn son.

We maintained the faith that our prior decisions were the right ones for us, and we plowed through with renewed passion. I had the thought that when 'walking the tightrope', if all 'safety nets' are taken away, then possibly that meant we were ready to 'move forward' without a safety net.

We made the decision to continue our own endevours and around 2015, now with 2 children I realized now, more than ever, that I really didn't want a 'traditional' job and my children in daycare – so I came back to WA with a renewed spark.

This spark drove me to create a website around my passions in life. I figured that if I could never find my dream job, maybe this meant that I had to create it. And create it I did – A family based business built around the idea of helping people.

However, it was hard – so hard that I almost quit dozens of times in tears. But, whenever I said the words 'I quit' – I would see some post on WA from some 'random stranger' – inadvertently, encouraging me not to quit.

The irony was too much to ignore – the fact that I was involved in such a special and unique community of people who were willing to help me and pump me up with reasons that I should not quit.

The other irony is that after saying 'I quit' so many times, 1 day back in January, in the midst of more turmoil and another series of unfortunate events, my website domain expired because I forgot to renew it. Due to switching email accounts, I had not recieved any emails reminding me of the domain expiry and for a few days I really did think that I may have lost months worth of work. Thank god for the grace period at NameCheap, and after I almost had it all disappear, I have not said 'I quit' since.....

The next test came shortly after - My 6 year old daughter who has always been extrememly healthy had a heart murmur that was discovered a few years back. We were told it was most likely nothing, but after 2 years of a heart murmur being monitored, and going for an xray - we were sent to a specialist. At this point we were told that she has a large hole in her heart – an atrial septal defect – she was born with it. She is still very healthy, and has lived with this unknowingly for 6 years, and we have had a very active life however, just being dealt that news was earth shattering. It also made me realize how I would have lived life with my daughter potentially very different (more cautious) if I would have known about her heart 6 years ago.... Like my best friend said 'that should tell you something'.....

My world crashed around me all in a matter of seconds, and during the next few months, I really did not know how to cope. The people around me were about as supportive as they normally are, which again was hard to deal with, as I expected additional support. However, I came to find some of that support I needed on Wealthy Affiliate.

It's ironic, because I have felt more love and support from random people who don't even know me then I have from many people in my personal life. This is not saying that I have no good people around me, however, sometimes we are forced to see other avenues as well.

I had a 'fear' that people out there would 'be haters' as I have encountered my share of those in 'real life'. However, on the contray, 'the people' out there that I have encountered so far in my online journey have been amazing!

My 1st attempt at a website (that I may or may not get back to someday) was about natural healing. I did not do much more than 2 posts about my dog and natural healing, but recieved some great/kind comments and even ranked #2 in the search terms and I can't say I did much to recieve that honor.

This taught me that if you write good content, it really does naturally rank. It also taught me that 'strangers' can be kind and supportive.

This is also what WA has taught me – what an amazing place!! I have had some people say the nicest things that anyone has ever said about me – it is beginning to renew my spirit, which had been crushed over the years by personal issues with some of my closest people. It has also made me come to love the connections that I have been finding with others in this community.

I read another member's post about her 'Wealthy Affiliate' family and I realized at that moment, that I have also found some support on here that has been truly inspiring and yes, feels 'family like' – but only the good family parts, not the drama...;)

Many days I cannot bring myself to talk to anyone about what is going on – the fears around my daughters upcoming heart surgery, the insecurities we have about our financial future, and the ultimate fear that this journey of working for ourselves may all be a suicide mission. Those days I always seem to come across some 'random' comment or post from the WA family that picks me up just enough so that I can keep on going...

So I just needed to make the most oversharing but heartfelt post I have ever made in my life – here it is – this is it – and the most sincere part of my sharing is saying- that those little comments that you make on WA really do have a huge impact in people's lives – I know it has in mine!! Thank you!!!

And at this point, I feel like the website is 'good enough' to share with my WA family.... it is not done, and probably never will be – with the mesh of ongoing ideas we have – but under the belief of divine timing, the fact I feel ready to share it must mean something.

Check it out, and know from my story, that despite your own circumstances, if you are here at WA with a dream, then you DO owe it to yourself to carry on with it! Living your dream truly is the biggest risk of all – if it were easy everyone would be doing it – and by taking the biggest risks I've heard you get the greatest rewards.....

Hugs to everyone who has helped me in this journey and hugs to all those yet to come.

" Dream Big and Dare to Break Your Own Heart"