OMG! I Have Scriptophobia
Scriptophobia is the extreme fear of writing in public.
There are several symptoms to scriptophobia. The one that affected me the most was the one that deals with the inability to write in school or finish projects because of the fear of being exposed. I try to avoid writing at all costs. This was an expensive lesson to learn. Considering I joined in April and this is the beginning of October. ( all those wasted monthly fees).
I joined and was moving swiftly through my certification lessons until I got to the part of making my first WA blog post. I didn't even know what a blog post was. I literally had to do some research outside of WA to learn more on the subject And realized I had been reading them for years. I felt like an idiot.
The more I learned about the subject, the more fear I was experiencing. My fears consisted of being creative, unique, and interesting, So I remembered there is a boot camp course I can start until I'm ready to post to every one.
I purchased my domain and took the boot camp course. I was doing fine until googled indexed me 10 days after I purchased my site. Now I was feeling that everyone can see my site and it is an embryo not even enough information on it to call it bones.
Now the anxiety is building. I don't want anyone to see my site it's not ready yet it's naked. So now I'm feeling pressured to put in more time to building my site. As I cruise through the boot camp course I hit the same wall I ran into in the certification course. I have to publish my first blog on my site.
Not understanding my frustrations, fears, and anxiety I was experiencing was coming from the fear I was having from writing. It was so bad that I cancelled my membership for 30 days because I was wasting money and not moving forward. I rejoined when I received an email stating that I would lose my free hosting if I didn't return.
One day I sat in deep thought as to why do I find it difficult to write a blog? When did this all start? It dawned on me when I was in the seventh grade the school announced that every Tuesday in an unknown period every student must write an essay. I started feeling some kind of way. If I can remember correctly I didn't write the essay at all when it initially started.
I hated Tuesdays. But because I refuse to fail in anything I do. I decided to write an essay. It was titled "The dog that couldn't bark". I wrote the same essay on every Tuesday. After a while I changed it to "the cat that couldn't meow". Same story different animal. It worked.
The next year at the same school the some authority came up with a test that you start taking in the eighth grade and if you can't pass the test by the twelfth grade you will not graduate from high school. The test had three sections to it math, reading, and writing. Reading is my strong point I love it.
I masterminded a plan between two other girls to each do one section for each of our tests I volunteered for the reading part. One girl wasn't interested she said if one failed we all would fail. So I dumped her and ran the idea by a girl who was smarter than her anyway. Long story short we all the passed and the girl that wasn't interested had to go to summer school to be helped with passing.
This writing thing was bigger than I thought, I even quit WA for 30 days not knowing why I was having a difficult time, unable to continue. Because of the fact that I know I can do anything I put my mind to ( and my mind is on becoming an online entrepreneur) I won't let any fear stop me from doing what I know I want to do. Especially a fear of writing. It's not even deadly like other fears.
Thanks to WA and the things they make you do, helped me a lot. I was on the lesson where you give comments in order to receive comments on my blog post (which also talks about how hard it was for me to write the post). I received a comment from someone telling me it may be hard at first, but the more you do it, the easier it gets.
To get over this fear I was told to write daily. No I will not post daily here in WA' s forum but I will write something related to my site if I have time in between my lessons and my regular job. So this is me doing it I can't wait for it to get easy.
Lesa
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WOW Lesa, you are brilliant at writing! So funny yet getting a serious message across...yes it will get easier for you with practice but you are bringing talent to that practice which is quite a combination!
Have you seen the SiteContent writing platform here, we can set word count goals and publish goals with dates on them, if you want that sort of motivation. I wrote about it here. The September SiteContent Challenge, Set Your Website Writing and Publishing Goals You can write every day without feeling the pressure to publish every day.
That is sooo funny what you said about your site being out there unfinished but remember it is pages and posts that rank, not the site. You'll notice the emphasis is on good content here moreso than fancy sites.
Every success to you, and thanks for sharing!
Thank you MozMary for the compliment . I will check out your platform at a later date. I'm taking baby steps right now. This is the first thing I have written since my first blog post on my website. (months ago).