Well, last Tuesday, I got laid off from my job in the oil field. I had a premonition a long time ago that it was going to happen, so although it is a bit stressful, it is also a relief. I think the manager giving me the news was actually more sad about it than I was. He told me that he was grateful that I was taking it so well.
In the days following, I’ve had a few funny things happen...Waking up in the middle of the night from a dream where I was stressing out over something relating to my former job...only to realize that I will never need to worry about that anymore, smile and go back to sleep... Wondering why it’s so cold in the house, then realize my automatic thermostat is still set for my working hours, and not for me being home….the calendar on my phone warning me of an upcoming event relating to the job that I no longer need to attend. I’ve managed to go to church two weeks in a row. I can watch my favorite programs on TV live, instead of recording them….etc… I never really realized how much stress I was under for all those years. I’ve been like a watch spring that was constantly wound up to it’s fullest extent. That spring is gradually relaxing.
I do feel sad about the others who were laid off at the same time as I was. They are young and have young families who depend on them to bring home that large paycheck every two weeks. I’ve shared my WA experience with them, but since I can’t honestly say that I’m making any money at it yet, it brings them no consolation.I do have a lot of thinking to do and adjustments to make, because I had a great income while I was working. I've been spending a lot of time in the employment office filling out forms in order to draw unemployment money which will help me make the transition away from that income and in order to qualify for continued compensation I must apply for at least two jobs per week, although there are really no jobs out there that I qualify for that pay as well as oil field work.
I'm 61 years old, and I spent a majority of that working, so this is a really strange feeling. My unemployment will last long enough for me to reach the age of 62 when I can draw social security and the other half of my Postal retirement and that's what I think I will do, so that I can totally focus on this WA experience which has been so amazing and yet unprofitable so far. I know the potential is there, and I do have the faith that it will happen but years of working the traditional "JOB" is a habit that is very hard to shake. Kind of like someone who has been in prison for 40 years, and finally gets paroled but they are afraid to leave because they know nothing else.
I’m so excited that I now have an unlimited amount of time to work on my websites now and to focus on learning those things I’ve struggled with here. Springtime is coming to Alaska and with that will bring many more opportunities to enjoy my hobby of gold prospecting, and hiking some of the most beautiful country in the world.
Life is good.