I need to find motivation again.
I am proud at how far I have come, but I feel like my brakes have been on and I can't get going again. My grandmother (whom I was very close with) ended up having a very short fight with Alzheimer disease. I had my son back in July, and she was living independently. Within a few short months of my son's life, she had moved into a nursing home. She was in a nursing home from November and it wasn't until January when we finally got a diagnosis. It was too late, a lady that was walking around in July was not bound to a Johnny Lounger, her mind was slipping and body were failing together. The woman who was always cheering me on and giving me motivation was dying. How was this fair to her. She became captive in her own body and that dreaded call came. My grandmother passed away April 18, 2018. It is still fresh and I am having a hard time getting back to WA and feeling motivated to keep going.
I want to be successful with this, and I know that the WA Community is full of amazing support. I just need a little shove to get me rolling again. I want to do another thing that will make her proud of me! I need some motivation. Thank you for reading my blog. Thank you if you leave some support for me.
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Hello,
I’m very sorry for your loss =( my granny passed away in April as well and I have really come to a stand still with things. Certain times are harder than others, but just stay strong; you’ve got a lovely baby boy in your life. Try to keep in mind that she would love to see you succeed and do great things and I’m sure she is proud of you with what you’ve done so far. She is still with you in your heart so try to stay strong for her and your baby boy. Things will get easier with time and just remember all of the good memories you made with her =) that helps me a lot!
Take care and I hope everything goes well!
Thank you for your message! I am sorry for your loss of your grandma as well. I really appreciate your kind words.
I am sorry for your loss. You need time to grieve before you can move on .
You will not get over it, you learn to deal with it. It doesn't erase the pain, but you eventually are able to handle it a little better.
Thoughts and prayers my friend.
Loss is hard, especially when it is an influential family member that you look up to as a mentor. But, although cycles of life will close certain doors it will also open others as well. I truly believe that.
Blessings, Brad
I am terribly sorry for your loss, first, off you need to mourn for your grandmother because it sounds like you haven't done that and you really haven't let go of your feeling of the loss of her. Your grandmother is at peace and she is in a better place and she is not in pain anymore. So take comfort in that and she is very proud of you no matter what you did or have done she will always be proud of you. Then you go do something fun to relax and get those creative juices flowing again. You will be a success in this business and your grandmother will always be proud of you and remember she is in your heart and you have your memories and nobody can take that away from you. I hope this helps you out and if you need anything I am here just PM me and I will do what I can to help you out.
Thank you so much for this message. I agree, I need to mourn her. It’s only been a little over a month. I just need to give it time.
Yes you do but don't stop working you keep on working and when you are ready you will let it all go at once and that is a great thing it will help you to heal and for closure. Just take your time and things will be fine.
So sorry for your loss. Take the time to grieve. Time does not actually heal all wounds Only you can do that. Her love will always be with you and so will the loss. Revel in her life. The rest, including WA will take care of itself. Never let your expectations exceed your gratitude. Peace to you and your family.
I'm a good listener... not so good at finding the right words to cheer up but this is what came to my mind while I was reading you.
I never had the chance to have a relationship with any of my grandparents and I think your grandmother was an exceptional human being with an ability that not so many people have. If your grandmother believed in what you can accomplish and saw how talented you are, there is no reason for you to doubt yourself: you'll be ready to work on your WA journey soon enough.
For now, give yourself time. Losing a loved one is one of the hardest life experience and it's a long healing process that's going on for you right now. You'll see, it will get better!
God bless you and take care of yourself.
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Dear Jessica,
Just by listening to you I know your grandmother was proud of you. You need to take time to grieve your loss. Your grandmother is at peace. When you are ready you will able to move on. You will find motivation is achieving susses your Grandmother will be catching.
Sincerely Sandy
Thank you for your message. Her name was Sandy! How cool.
If you need anything just send me a note.
your friend Sandy