I Hate Writing Sad

But Life Makes These Decisions;

About 4 years ago my soul mate, had a stroke, it was bad enough that I felt I needed to start looking.

Looking for an alternate pay, although my 8 to 12-hour job, was always stopping me, so I started looking online.

And while I was reading this review, on the Wealthy Affiliate, that a Mr. Jerry had written.that I was interested in,

So I started studying the Wealthy Affiliate. which had got me what I thought was a catchy Domain and a nice-looking website.

On losing weight the name was https://billscuttingedgewebsite.com I had it going on for almost a year, in fact.

I thought I had it going on except for no traffice or very little traffice so I started listening.

To everyone that was in other niches, they were actually getting sign-ups and making sales.

Finding A New Niche;

So I went to look for another niche, one of my Wealthy Affiliates brothers, suggested the name was too long.

So I dug down in my desires and came up with a survival https://razordegesurvival.com.

Which looked like it was going to be the moneymaker, after all, how could I find anything?

More important than to be able to help people to survive, and I had a lot more to talk about.

All this time I didn't notice my wife of 40 years, stroke was getting worse, because she couldn't even set up straight.

I had already done everything I could so I went to set my new website up, and how quick it was.

It took no time, to set this new website up and start getting ranked by Google in a fraction of the time.

It took me, with the first site, so can we say Happy, Happy Joy, Joy, Things seem to be looking better.

Things Are Looking Better;

Knowing that things are getting better with this new website, I noticed the wife couldn't make it to the restroom.

So I took her to her doctor, and he ordered, home health for her which supplied Nurses, Caregivers.

And home-delivered meals, he put her in the rest home for 3 months for Physical therapy.

After she got checked in, the Nursing home, 4 Seasons informed her that Medicaid didn't cover Physical Therapy.

And she had to stay there for a month before she could keep her Medicaid and the advantage program.

So this is how this had worked out, I was coming in at 06:00 AM and changing her pull-ups.

The Proverbial Straw That Broke The Camels Back;

Mainly I was doing all the rest homes duties. my wife didn't want to be there, So I did the only husbandly.

The Only thing to do, that I could think of, I took her out of 4 seasons, at that time.

As I kept, on working https://azoredgesurvival.com I noticed that afrter 1 year, that although I was getting more visiter's.

I wasn't getting any sign-ups or sales, I got to thinking about the Wealthy Affiliate.

One day there was a post where one person had signed up around the same time I did.

And was making sales, now I was having a head-scratching moment, and a new idea.

Another Changing Of The Mind;

Now I had thought about this before, making and working 2 websites, and at that time Mr.Kyle told me.

It wasn't a good idea, there isn't enough time, to be able to make that work because.

There was too much work involved, and I didn't have the experience to pull it off, you see.

I asked this during the worry of my first site, this is the reason I dropped the first site.

So with the wife getting worse, and it is harder to keep things up with $1331.00 a month.

I decided, with all the others making money, with selling Wealthy Affiliate. I would give it a try.

You know working on 2 websites, now this is, challenging, I'll tell you this isn't Kyle's first Rodeo, but it is working or was working.

The Sad;

The time it has been taking to take care of my wife, needing to get up way early due to bowels.

The housework, trying to match her sleep pattern, taking care of her personal needs like holding her glass.

For her to drink, trying to keep her sain, Man she was a go-getter, you could eat breakfast off.

Our bathroom floor. kind of housekeeper, because she has lost everything, she even has a hard time.

Asking for things, she has always called me "B", she will say Be, and then she stops and thinks.

But the end of the question is gone, so you can't figure it out then she starts crying.

The Inevitable;

Her doctor noticed she was getting a lot of infections because she was afraid of our shower, and there wasn't anyway.

I could get her into this little bitty restroom to take a shower in a tub I had to pick her up and set her in the tub.

So He prescribed her to the Oak Ridge Nursing facility, now I'm talking, if this wasn't bad enough.

She had to go into quarantine for 14 days, the facility had to get rid of all the pets.

So I can't even take her little dog up to see her, I can't even take her home to see her dog.

Now she is supposed to, get 6 nits at home in a year's time but because of the Covid, I can't keep her out after Midnight.

Even after the 14-day quarantine, she will be right back to the 14 days of quarantine.

Let's Not Forget THe Dog;

So you can't get much sadder than X2, when I get the dog up to her, there's an overabundance of excitement.

When I have to put her back in the car, Mama cries the dog runs from me and acts sad also.

And when I get the dog back to the apartment, she starts running around looking for you guessed it, Mom.

Even though she just left her up to the rest home, she runs into the house and she can't find her.

And if I go up to the rehab center without the dog, when I get back to the apartment, he'll open the door.

She runs out looking at the car, she'll run around the car excited looking for Mom again.

Then her little head drops and she mopes back into the house, and I've even found Tears In Her Eyes.

In Conclusion;

Here let's finish this sad S***, now that she is in the rest home, her depression has doubled, she wants me up there most of the time.

So I'm doing almost all I was doing at home except now I've got to do what I can then run-up to the rest home.

And try and keep her centered, I can take her dog up to visit outdoors which is ok except on the cold days.

And instead of having only my wife to calm down love and keep centered, I've got the same duties with the dog.

She even seems like she's more depressed talking about the dog.

So I guess, what I want to conclude about this here article is, if you noticed your loved ones right foot twitching.

For a day or so you really need to get her to a doctor, because chances are she's having the beginning of a stroke.

Leave a comment if you like, with any ideas to make sad not as bad.

Thank You,