Moaning Minnie Alert!

Happy Wednesday to all WA-ers.

I will start by apologising as I am hoping you will allow me the luxury of a good ol' rant! Actually it's not even a rant, it's a good old fashioned moan! I dislike moaners, they are my pet hate as I'm a true believer that instead of moaning do something about it - but today is a sorry day..... I've joined them - it's a one-off - just a temporary blip I promise!

I'm fed up about something completely out of my control, out of anybody's control and what's making me even worse is that usually I throw myself into WA and as you all know, my huge squeezy stress ball (https://my.wealthyaffiliate.com/alexandrat11/blog/huge-squee... hopefully the link works - my first one included in a WA post) completely lifts me up again and takes my mind off things, makes the World seem like a much better place.

But for the past week I've been only nipping in and out of WA, not even reading all of the blogs or responding to them all (which I feel awful about and send huge apologies to anybody that I have missed recently). I have them all stored but as you can imagine, the list to get through is getting longer and longer each day.

Don't get me wrong, it's not that I haven't had the time.... since last week work have instructed us all to work from home for the forseeable future - the positive to this is that I straight away thought I would allocate at least 2-3 hours of my working day to my website. GOOD PLAN I hear you shout at your screens! Yes it's a great plan. However, a plan is only great if it's adhered to.So, I've had all this time - but what have I done with it over the past week?NADA! ZERO! ZILCH! A BIG FAT NOTHING!Wait! Actually that's not completely true!I've been playing with my themes - that's something at least - come on, go easy on me!! I'm beating myself up enough as it is!

OK, I think I've sufficiently started Rami off now - he's screaming at the screen at this moment for me to buck my ideas up and knuckle down to some work woman! Forever my motivator and a$$ kicker whom I love to bits!

Hmmmm, I'm really making the most of this aren't I? LOL!!

A little bit in my defence I have had some site issues too like expiring SSL certificates (whatever they are??) and a couple of other things but those are just a great idea for an excuse! Another one of my pet hates, people who make excuses for their lack of commitment, for misbehaving or whatever it is they are trying to excuse themselves about.

Anyway, I digress.

I have read so many incredibly motivational blogs recently, and some in the past couple of days which really resonated with me - to the point where I thought - WOW this could have been written for me.... was it directed towards me? How do they know how I'm feeling? Jeff? Rami? Steve? Dave? Twack? Mark? Heidi? And many others. How do you all know?? Yes, paranoia also seems to have set in which is obviously an offshoot of my guilt for doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!

So, what is it that has caused this rant?Well first of all, I would just like to assure all of you that I am not a control freak, not in any way shape or form, however, I do like to solve problems. I don't like it when either I or a friend or family member has a problem that I can't help them out with, when nothing can be done, when it's out of my control (still not a control freak!). It drives me to distraction and I find it hard to accept.

Current Example:

My Mum is waiting for open heart surgery, she's 78 and needs the operation within 6 months otherwise she's at risk of a fatal heart attack. She waited 2 months for her operation date, February 26th and the night before they called and cancelled. We waited a week and they called with a new date, April 3rd.

We have now had a call to say, they are hoping not, but it may be cancelled again depending on the rapidly worsening Coronavirus situation. I asked about going privately and it's a minimum of £25k hmmmm! If I had a spare £25k I would not still be working full time, WA would be my full time life - so suffice it to say, I'm looking into it but probably not an option.

An alternative option is to keep regularly contacting the secretary to the surgeon and drive her to the point where she would do anything but cancel my Mum because I'm a pain in her Jaaxy (LOL) and she just wants rid of me!

A Further Example:

Due to my fiance living in Germany and me living in the UK we both do everything we can to see each other every 3 weeks and spend loads of time on the phone daily, watch football together whilst hanging out on the phone etc. and just basically make the best of a situation which will change eventually but it's not possible right now.

As you all know, Valentines Day bombed out because of work issues unfortunately and you all know how I felt about that,.... consequently I am booked on a flight for Saturday morning to go to Germ

any, returning on Tuesday morning - normally my reaction would be...

I have some people telling me I'm crazy, that I shouldn't be going, that it's irresponsible etc etc. which I totally get - I have my concerns too. My friend is an air hostess with British Airways and she said that aeroplanes are the cleanest they've ever been at the moment plus there's likely to be about 20 people on the plane in total.

One minute my mindset is that I'll go, we have already agreed that we'll just stay at home and not go out other than to see his family. Then I think no it's getting worse day by day and I should just stay home. Normally I probably would, HOWEVER..... as my other half is so busy at work at the moment, working 6-7 days a week for another 3-4 months he cannot come here, so we agreed that during this busy 6 month period, which we knew was coming, I would go there each time.

With what's going on with my Mum I would normally not be able to get over there again until the end of May, but with the developing situation of Coronavirus we are constantly being told it's going to get worse so it could be a lot longer than that. I don't think Germany has ever felt so far away. The last time we saw each other was mid-January.

Obviously, I'm not a naive little schoolgirl throwing caution to the wind and this isn't a romantic chick flick that can only end with a dreamy happy ever after but it really is a dilemma. It is only going to get worse before it gets better.... but is it already too bad?

These are my dilemmas at present which are occupying my mind and killing my ability to put a post together and progress with my sites. I've done so much research for 6 different posts but I just don't have the concentration to make sense of the jumble.

How can I turn this around into a positive for WA?

Oh yes..... I am still managing to smile and laugh despite the whirlwind spinning in my head because of my truly wonderful WAmily here!

I have commented on some of the blogs and taken a few of them over (apologies Heidi & Phil especially!) but as you are all becoming aware, I do love to chat!!

The motivational blogs are helping and the true friendship that's building with my new found pals has had an incredible effect this past week. And I've even had an extra special cyber hug from Big Softie Jeff (one of his alter egos this past week):

In fact, I wasn't the only one, Mick got one too!

So even though this post seems like a really negative one, it finishes on a positive note for anybody who is undecided on whether to go for Premium Membership or not. DO IT! It will have a profound effect on your life in so many more ways than you expect.

It's incredible to be part of such a large community of the most special people walking on this planet. They have your back every step of the way. You cannot fail. Yes you can have your slower times (it's life) but you cannot fail unless you don't give it a go or you quit.

Go Premium and not only "smash it" but love it, embrace it and achieve the future you thought wasn't possible! The success stories just keep coming and those people didn't do any different training to what you will do.

In the risk of being really soppy for a Wednesday afternoon......

Rami, I know - the time it took to write this post I could have written some content for my website! Just stop talking to your screen.... I can't hear you! LOL!

A huge, forever hug to my special new friends - you know who you are - and thank you so much for just being you and putting a smile on my face every day!

My next post will be business as usual!

Have a great rest of the week!!

Alex