It was down to the wire yesterday...the clock was ticking...4 hours left, 3, 2, 1...
Like I indicated in the title, it was time...time to decide. Was I going to go Premium or not. I had just gotten some "unexpected" funds (more about this "unexpected" part in a later blog) but I still had no WAY to make the payment. You see, I'm still recovering from the financial garbage of a few years back..as well as the damage that the stress of it all has tried to play on my body. I'm winning (more about THAT in later blogging too. :) ) but it's been tough. One of the worst parts of losing so much is you lose your ability to make transactions...you know, as if you were still a decent human being. And it's not that you aren't, it's just that you need to climb back out of the whole and prove your worth (first to yourself and then to others) all over again. But if you keep on believing, even if you have to start at believing in belief itself, I do think you will make it...in fact I've been setting out to prove this theory on myself. And that's how I got here...More about THIS later on too.... ;) Good times ahead.
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I hear you Suzanne. I've been there. I had gotten out of teacher to refurbish homes with the boyfriend (which became an ex right away) and wasn't sure if I wanted to return to teaching. I was so so blessed to have the mental and financial support until I got back on my feet. I owe her a lot for believing in me and always cheering me on. Yes, I believe good times will come for you. Thanks for sharing.
Thanks again to all. I think of us as in the process of becoming more than we were and maybe even more than we realized we could be. Loving the journey and I know that's an important part of the journey. Successes (daily) to all. :)
Its all about direction, do what you can, when you can and feel good about the effort when you put your head down at night. Keep positive and keep moving.
Thanks, I'm pretty psyched and I believe it's for all the right reasons and the right place. Success to you (and really to us all), too. :)
sorry. just caught a few mistakes..lol (WHOLE???) omg...and I'm usually the spelling checker policewoman.. ah well..
I always hold a blog post in draft for at least an hour before I publish. Then, I proof read. It helps, but if I check back a few days later after publishing I still see something spelled wrong, violates common grammer rules, or is not at all what I meant to say. Good luck.
Great stuff, I look forward to future blogs. Sometimes mentality makes all the difference.
Thanks for your comment, Ethan, I hope to make that point in future blogs too. I believe that truth, wholeheartedly. :) And Brad..there's no reply spot so I'm just adding thanks for the tip on how you do your blog posts. Appreciate it. In fact, thanks to all for Congrats and Support. Looking forward to hearing more from all. :) Suz
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