I got too much on my mind
I've had a lot on my mind lately which has left me dazed and confused, so bear with me. I'll try to express myself as best as I can and maybe someone can help me out or at least relate to what I'm going through.
Money has always been a really sensitive topic in my household. So because of that, I've grown up with a lot of limiting beliefs about money and it just messes with my head.
This MLM company I joined a few months back has been great, but I've really held myself back because well it involves recruiting people and I'm not exactly good at that. Some of my friends that got me into the company ended up leaving because of lack of money and just going through tough times. So now I'm in this company and I don't really know anyone there anymore. The people there are pretty cool, though. Very positive, very encouraging, but I felt terrible that I just couldn't get anyone to join. And to top it all off, this girl that I grew to start liking a lot that I met through the company is dating this one guy that's also a part of the group, and I hate seeing them flirting with each other before and after the meetings. Not fun.
I ended up leaving the company unofficially (well I'm still in it, just haven't gone to the meetings and such), and I started going to a bible study group in hopes of growing in my faith. All that did was scare the bejeezus out of me because everyone was talking about the rapture and the apocolypse (not gonna try to spell that) and how the stuff in Syria is a precursor to the rapture. They also said that money is the root of all evil and that you can't worship both God and money, it's either one or the other. So I left them too.
I've always had faith in God, but damn it shouldn't be depressing like that. I feel like I shouldn't want to succeed because money is bad, which is exactly what my parents taught me. Sucks.
Now I'm sitting here, discouraged, quite a bit depressed, and with hardly any motivation to write. My writing relies a lot on passion and creativity, and I'm just not feeling it lately. Everyone seems to want to drag me in a different direction, and I don't know what to do. So now I've just stayed away from the majority of folks and just go to school and work. Even watching sports doesn't give me the same joy it used it.
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Money is just a tool to get you the things you really want. Most often money can make that easier, though sometimes it doesn't, you don't always need it to get what you want.
Anyone who limits your tools in life should be questioned.
MLM is not something I am keen on as it is reliant on a downline and if they were as good as they say they are then everyone would be in all of them. I personally think you are better off out of it to concentrate on your own business. Thats just me.
For your writing I think you just have to sit down and write. So much advice from famous literary figures comes down to simply that, write. Don't wait for the inspiration, just put on word down at a time then the next and the next till you are done. Inspiration is over rated :)
If you keep feeling this way for a while I would suggest going to see someone and talking it over. There are many options available just in case it isn't just a bit of a funk.
Been there done that. pm me you want a chat.
Yeah thankfully I've had a few people reach out to me because they've been wondering where I've been at. I just gotta keep going I guess.
Cheer up, young man! First of all, I would say that fear is not of God. I'm glad you left your Bible study group. Find another one that can help you grow in your faith because that is the will of God for you. Secondly, money is not the root of all evil. But rather the love of money is the root of all evil. If you love money more than God then definitely you can't worship God anymore. All you think about is money, money, money, which should not be the case. I hate to say this. But too many so-called Christians become too fanatic and they go beyond what the Bible simply says. Stay away from these kind of people.
Don't be discouraged. Keep working out your faith. If you have not studied "Experiencing God" by Blackaby or "The Purpose-Driven Life" by Rick Warren, these are great materials to start with which you can study even on your own. Continue searching for the group that will draw you near to God. Christian life should be enjoyable. There is a place that can meet your need. Praying for you!
Hey there!
Kudos for you to reaching out to our WA community and not holding this all inside.
1. Money's been a sensitive in my house growing up too. While I grew up in a middle class home, there was always tension that was tangible around the topic of money and how much there was (or wasn't). That being said, I am an entrepreneur with an entrepreneurial spirit and I know that you've got that too! You have the opportunity to build yourself up and to create the financial freedom that you need to live the life that you deserve. There's nothing wrong with being comfortable! And imagine when one day, you will have a family of your own and there will be no discomfort whatsoever when you discuss finances! That image alone should be enough to propel you forward and distract you from giving up on your dream.
2. Regarding the MLM company, what sucks is that the people who have left are losing out on a great investment. Warren Buffett owns 5 (I believe, but not sure of the exact number) network marketing companies and says that besides for real estate, if he had to start over making money from scratch, he would do it through MLM. Yes, it may take a while to achieve the total success you are aiming for, but it's worth taking the time to do that. I was actually recently at a seminar where they were discussing a specific MLM company and members involved. It turns out that 2 people who recently quit were so close to the top level and a $20,000/month income that had they waited 2 more months, they would have gotten there. But, they were tired and weren't seeing immediate results and gave up just 2 months too soon. Don't let that happen to you! And about the girl you've set your sight on, yeah, that hurts, but don't let that get in your way of being the best guy you can be. That is no reason to quit!
3. I am a religious individual, in fact, many would call me a 'fanatic' :-). I do religious outreach work wherever I am (I travel a lot!) and in fact, volunteered in Moscow, Russia for an entire year doing just that! My point is, I am a gal of the bible. That being said, there is nothing inherently evil about money. Money is a tool. What we do with that tool is up to us and that will be the deciding factor in whether the money was used for evil or not, but in and of itself, money is an inanimate object. To look at it from a different angle, charity is also a form of money. Good point, right? G-d gives us opportunity to make money and then holds us to the high standard of knowing how to use that money wisely. Is that hard sometimes? Yes! But, no one said life was easy. I'm not sure what bible group you've been attending, but I can tell you, it's not the right one for you. I applaud you for seeking out religious 'nourishment' and I'm happy that you feel comfortable in a bible group, but just as there is no one-size-fits-all in life, the same applies here. There are definitely bible study groups out there that have a more positive perspective on life and are not quick to judge and condemn. You need to find the one that works for you.
I hope that this has provided some food for thought and I wish you lots of success! But, you gotta keep a positive attitude and be persistent! You came so far, don't let it all fall away because of some hard days... Keep up the great work :-)
If you can write thirty articles in thirty days, then I know for a fact that you can produce additional high quality and original content. Take another break if you have to. We all get writer's block from time to time. As far as the MLM goes, if you believe then you can achieve...period. It just comes down to how bad do you want it (success). I have a strong feeling that you will make it through this difficult time, just focus. Later
Money does not have a mind of it's own therefore, it can't be evil. People can only drag you around if you let them. You deserve to be content, you deserve to be happy, you deserve respect, you have a right to happiness and to have self respect and if that includes making money even lots of it, so be it. It is what is in your heart that counts. While I am not a religious person per say, I do believe you can love God or your higher power and make or have, a lot of money. It may feel like you don't know what to do but I guarantee you do. Take that time for yourself. Write and write and write. There are things going on the world near and afar, that we have absolutely no control over. I think it best to acknowledge them, then move on. The things that are going on in the Middle East have been going on since the beginning of time and there is nothing you or I or anyone else for that matter, can do about it.You however, can look after yourself by being good to yourself. So get at the business of taking control of your life and be happy doing it. I am rooting for you and would hope to hear that you are back at your web site writing. I also agree with Marvin63 's comment. I wish you all things good and much success. :~)
Sincerely, Virginia
Thank you so much! I consider myself very spiritual, but thanks to the bible study group I was a part of, I can see why people hate religious nuts so much. They take the bible stuff way too far.
I feel like I have a right to want to succeed and help others succeed, and if I end up very wealthy well it'll only be because I've helped and positively impacted thousands of people along the way. I'd imagine God would be happier with that than me slaving away at some crappy job for meager pay and hating my life.
Well young man you certainly write well and I hope to see that on your website. Great energy drink company, I'm a fan. With your enthusiasm, even if you don't feel it right now, you will do well.
I love the products that Vemma has. That's why I'll never fully give up on them no matter what. I'm a huge believer and user of the drinks. And I've seen how successful people have been with the company. It's crazy.
I'm sorry people have been misrepresenting what the Bible says about money. You were taught that money is the root of all evil - the Bible says that the LOVE of money is the root of all evil. While it is true you cannot worship both money and God, you may want to enjoy money and worship God. If you ever decide to go to Church again, be careful to pick a place that teaches God's grace, not a place that teaches fear and guilt! Take a deep breath, realize God loves you, no matter what dingbats at Church say and his plan for you is to enjoy life and share his love, with yourself and your friends and enemies alike!! Thats my belief. I hope you come to share it somehow!
Yeah I mean the only way to succeed in the MLM I'm in is to help people, and they emphasize personal development and building up skills to succeed. The money you make is just a byproduct of all the work you put in. But yeah, these people screwed me up with all the Bible talk.
Go back and look at your website. Your passion is there. I see it. It's a marathon, not a sprint. We all get jacked up from time to time. Build on your successes. Learn and make corrections from your mistakes. MLM is a great industry. It allows everyone to start from a level playing field. Race, religion, sex, connections. None of those things matter. What matters is what's in your heart and your attitude that you and only you are in control of your future. Go make it happen.
Hey Robert, read my blog entry when you have a chance.
http://airborneincome.com/decide-commit-achieve
Wow! Thanks for the kind words :)
Yeah I love the MLM I'm in but I have to sneak out of the house just to go to the meetings (well I just tell my parents I'm going to the library, they don't approve of the company I'm with). I guess I'm just scared.
Marvin that blog is awesome! I just read it. Decide.Commit. Achieve. Exactly what I need to do.
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Hey Robert. The other members have already given you some great advice and words of wisdom, so it's going to be difficult to add something truly meaningful, but I'll try.
First, I'd like to comment that I really like your website's look and feel. Marvin's right--the passion does show through.
Next, this whole issue about money being the "root of all evil" is a bunch of malarkey, as many have already said. The assumption is that God thinks that wealth is evil. If that's so, then He has a curious way of illustrating it. Consider the following "rich" men of the Bible:
1. Abraham. Genesis 13:2 says "Abram was very rich in livestock, silver and gold."
2. Isaac. Genesis 26:12-15
3. Solomon. I Kings 10:23.
4. Jehoshaphat. II Chronicles 17:3-5.
5. Look at II Chronicles 32:27-29. That Scripture is about Hezekiah, who was so rich he had to build special treasury buildings for all his silver, gold, precious stones and spices, his shields and other valuable items. He even built more buildings to hold all his grain, wine, olive oil, cattle, sheep and goats.
6. Job. Job 1 through 42. Job quickly loses everything he has but not because of anything he did. By Chapter 42, we see the Lord restores Job's fortune and gives him twice as much as before. Read the whole book to get the full story on Job and his wealth.
7. Joseph of Arimathaea, a disciple of Jesus. Matthew 27:57.
8. King David. And he died in a good old age, full of days, riches, and honour: and Solomon his son reigned in his stead. - 1 Chronicles 29:28.
Most who hold to the "money root of all evil" mantra will point to the story about Lazarus and the statement: "...and It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God. -- Matthew 19:23-24, Mark 10:23-25.
As usual, these people make the mistake of taking one verse of scripture and making a whole religion out of it. Note that the verse does NOT say that rich people cannot "enter into the kingdom of God."
Finally, the bottom line: At age 23, you have a long life ahead of you. Do not let others dictate to you how that life will turn out. Associate with positive-minded people and avoid those who would tear you down, or tell you that you cannot achieve. You can--and you will!
Joshua
Wow Joshua your post is incredible! And yes, I have to surround myself with positive people. I just gotta figure out what it is I wanna focus on next, and then commit myself to it.