Staying Current, Balancing Act

Last Update: September 01, 2019

Where I Am At Now...

Time is ticking away, life is moving on, making strides and getting places. But....

Life is a constant balancing act! I have now gone back to my tethered job after being off for nine weeks. Nine weeks of practicing my Laptop Lifestyle and boy did I love it!

So, what is happening now, just trying to find the balance to keep my dream flowing! I am slipping on keeping up with my WA accomplishments. I fell from the 100 Club back into the 200 Club pretty quickly.

Not as active in the community at the moment, have been focusing my time when not working at my job on my website. Have not found a nice flow yet or a good balance of time. That always seems to be a big issue for me, balancing time and trying to get everything I want to do in a day, done. Lacking sleep and a balance between that and working.

I know the little milestones that I have achieved in WA are not what is going to catapult me into my Financial Freedom Lifestyle, but they sure are motivators and also measurements of my actions of participation.

Confession...

Now I have to confess this, almost embarrassed to say it, (why, I do not know). I'm slow moving at getting my blog website and niche done, that I feel I can grow. My perfectionism has gotten the best of me and holding me back! It stifles me, delays me, sets me back, hinders me.

Now I have started over almost a half dozen times! It is crazy! I keep going back to the drawing board when I should just put it out there and let the world decide. See how it goes, if it goes WELL, than I'm just a step closer to my success in this endeavor. If it doesn't go well, than, I have one more STEP to make it better.

I have been hesitant to write about this, because to me it feels like a failure. I hear myself say those words and just shake my head! Because failure is only when you stop trying! AND I AM NOT STOPPING!

It is a struggle that I have been going through for months and feeling a bit ashamed, but have decided to write about it, get it out of my system and work on moving forward.

What is blocking me?

  • Is it fear?
  • Am I fearing something?
  • Am I afraid of success?
  • Am I feeling that I'm not worthy of success or financial freedom and happiness?
  • Am I doubting?
  • Do I think I cannot be that good?

There is a nagging feeling or thought going on inside of me, something telling me something and that something is not so positive.

That is why I have been reluctant to say anything, because I feel it is a negative thought, feeling, etc.... I really try to be positive and use positive vocabulary and think positive thoughts but I do have those negative doubts, insecurities, indecision gnawing at me constantly.

Just Keep Going...

With this said, I want to move past this part of me that tells me I'm not worthy, I'm not good enough, or you don't deserve good things. Want to work through my perfectionism and indecision and just throw it out there and see what sticks! Easier said than done, already feeling anxiety with that statement....hahaha

I just wanted to share this, in case anyone else is struggling with these things or similar, to let you know you are not alone. And hoping also by putting it out there I can begin to heal myself and become the person I want and need to be.

I think that if I write my goals down I might be better at time management, but that is a topic I need to study. As silly as it may sound, that seems like a hard thing to do. I guess that is where my indecisiveness comes in.

Any thoughts, advice, techniques you may have that have helped you with balancing your time will be greatly appreciated.

Happy Prosperous Journeys To All!

Cindy

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Aussiemuso Premium Plus
Hi Cindy, just try to relax. I can tell you're smart enough for this internet business. Perhaps one step at a time. Don't over think it and trust you will learn what you need to know as you go.

Keep moving ahead and trust the lessons.

Regards,

Lily 😊
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unigirl Premium
Thanks Lily so much for your warm words!
Most encouraging!

Love your name, I have a fur baby named Lily.

Cindy
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JKulk1 Premium
Hi Cindy. .Great blog, and I totally understand your fear, most of us struggled with this. Just one thing though, it's against WA policy to promote your website on the WA blogging platform. Would you mind please removing the link. You can place it on your profile page under your blogs on the follow me section. Thanks Jim
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unigirl Premium
I took it out, are you still seeing it?
Even if you refresh your page, are you still seeing it?

I did not even mean to post this post just yet, but could not
figure out to keep it as a draft.
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unigirl Premium
Do you still see my link?
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JKulk1 Premium
It's gone now Cindy. A lot of people don't realise this. I realise yours was just an accident. Jim
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unigirl Premium
Thanks Jim,
I was reading through the blog post rules to make sure about it, but didn't get a clear understanding. Sleep deprivation getting the best of me...lol

Thus the need to write the post!

Thanks for your feedback.
Cindy
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Feochadan Premium Plus
Site Comments and Site Feedback are the place to post your blog. Putting it in a post is a no-no. Excellent article, tho!
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DMahen1 Premium
Thanks for the reminder. IT may be too early in my morning to recall all the rules.
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unigirl Premium
Thanks, I was reading through the blog post rules and trying to figure out if it was ok or not. Gonna take that paragraph out for now.

Really did not want to post it just yet.

Thanks for your reply.
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DMahen1 Premium
The link you posted leads to an Admin page.
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unigirl Premium
I know, I was trying not to post this. I was trying to save it as a draft. Gonna take it down.
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DMahen1 Premium
Thanks for that. When a review comes up in site comments, I'll see it there.
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DMahen1 Premium
I'm off to look at your site and will comment there.
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