Continuation of A Good & Faithful Man

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Updated 10 years ago

PART 2

It has been a year now, since I lost my father - yesterday, as a matter of fact. I went to church & then visited the cemetery. I thought about the great miracle that was pronounced last year on Easter Sunday - how God was with us in our time of need and my father received a new infusion of life, even after the removal of the ventilator. Dad most likely suffered a stroke without the meds and the ventilator, but he was a fighter! My dad was a kindhearted soul - slow to anger - but he would definitely put up a fight for any just cause or anyone he loved. Just my ever so humble opinion here, even though he loved God with all his heart, he was probably arguing with God about leaving us behind.

After everything that happened, and, after his passing at home, I wanted to blame someone else. I wanted to blame my father for leaving me. I know I was wrong in that. After all, I was the one who told him that, even though we loved him and would miss him, things would be okay. It was time - his time. Just as my father interceded for me in life, I know he is still interceding for me from a better place.

The time has come for me to move on. I am letting go of the sorrow and the bitterness. I am going to move forward with my life and my hopes of being a better man. I have a new purpose and goal in life - to be half the man my father was. The goal is a bit overwhelming when I dwell on it, but if I try in small steps... maybe it can happen. I definitely have my work cut out for me.

A certain person I know at work, who shall remain nameless - Benny, said something very provocative to me last week. He said, "How do you eat an elephant?" I believe Creighton Abrams said, "One bite at a time."

I have made a mess of things at work and at home. I am no longer going to fear that really big elephant, so if you will please excuse me, it's time for me to take another bite.