Crushed (nearly)
Crikey, the past few days have been a real damper on my spirits and I am feeling, more like felt really, somewhat crushed. A lot of things happened that demanded my time and undivided attention on things that I really didn't wnt to spent time or my attention on as I knew it would do me no good on an emotional/mental level.
I am currently the sole carer for a 95 year old, recalcitrant child... my mother-in-law. Her cognitive function is declining, her mobility is declining and her falls risks and care need are increasing, although she thinks she is no burden at all.
Assessemnts were made this week to see what can be put in place to relieve my carer stress, yet MIL refused all suggestions of respite... she is still classed as of sound mind so if she says 'no' it's 'no'. I shed a lot of tears because I need a break... I didn't even have the emotional energy to hang with my horses other then going out and feeding them.
Ont top of that, one of my horses is in training and I got a call from the trainer and after discussing with me that my boy seem to be in pain, and we decided to get the chiro out to check him over. Not good news... he's off to the vet for x-rays on both his front legs... so praying there is nothing sinister. He's only 5 years old and I bred him. He's a Waler, a unique Australian breed and the apple of my eye.
I popped into WA a few times, but my brain just wasn't on the tasks in the learning modules, and I had little intererst in enagaging in discussions, etc but... I am back. Being here is part of my self-care... and although it feels a bit weird writing about my woes this week... it also feels right as I am figuring that it all contributes to my lived experience on which I want to base my website/blog on.
Overcoming obstacles in my health and wellbeing, using different modalities, 'tools' and resources is my mission, and sharing my successes, experiences and obstacles, the bumps along the way, that is my passion.
Upward and onwards :)
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Thank you for your post. I'll be honest and admit my time on WA is spent reading blogs, comments, training, and socializing. In the meantime, my website sits there in neutral and going nowhere fast or anytime soon.. I'm not saying that I don't enjoy doing all those things...I love it, but it's time to buckle down and get serious! I thank you again Petra!! And my prayers will be with your beautiful horse! 🏇
Yay Us!! 🌟
Hmm... I am on the laptop and I cannot see any emojis anywhere... lol
Doesn't matter, just want my messages to look as cool as yours :D :D
Hi Petra, other things always seem to take your time away from you. I am in the same boat...but not the same things that take my time.
My wife and daughter seem to take up my time, because I spend almost every weekend at work. The plant I work for is so behind in orders and they schedule me to work every weekend. So, the little time I have left in the evenings is spent with my family.
I have to make time here when no one is home with me. My wife has a pet-sitting business and my daughter is in dance. So, those are the times I spend here...and my website.
So, don't let the times you are not able to work on you website get you down...just squeeze it in when you can and do as much as you can in that amount of time. That's what I do...even a little progress is forward progress.
I wish you the best!
Bob
Thank you Bob, for your encouraging words. You are so right, one can only do so much and I just chip away as I have time. I think I was devastated about the news about my horse and the possible implications.
Onwards and upwards :)
So sorry to hear about your problems, Petra. I think caring for someone with dementia must be one of the most draining things imaginable. I've never had to do it (my mother lived to 102 but was fiercely independent) but I have interacted with those who have.
I hope writing it down and sharing it with the WA community has helped in some way.
And very, very sorry to hear about your 5 yo Waler. He's a lovely looking horse. I do hope the X-rays provide good news.
Phil (fellow Queenslander)
Hi Phil,
thank you for your kind words. MIL hasn't been diagnosed with dementia... she's pretty good and has 'just' short term memory loss which is considered 'normal' considering her age. Her independence though is that symbolic rock on the back in the picture above.
I am hoping the x-rays will show that a positive outcome can be achieved. In my mind I am already thinking about any rehab work I can do with Squiggles.
Monday cannot come fast enough for me.
Greetings from the Lockyer Valley, and hopefully we get some decent rain soon.
Petra :)
Not experienced the same as you but I have just moved house and I seem to be too tired to do very much in the evening.
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always easy to cross but we always
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I wish you the best for this month and
the others.
Take care of yourself.
Nice weekend!
Ingrid