I'm fuming!
Yes, I'm angry. I'm very angry.
Today is the second day in a row that I am at home instead of being at work. I am self-employed and have been for most of my working life. I have had jobs as an employee for a few months here and there but that's about it because I just cannot deal with being restricted in any way.
I don't like the bossy boss, the gossiping colleagues, the heaps of paperwork. I can't stand the idea of someone else telling me what time I can go home or when I can get a few days off to go and see my parents, my siblings, nieces and nephews.
I just generally don't do well with rules and regulation... Any of you ever felt like that?
I get it from my parents as they both have university degrees but my Dad left teaching early on to pursue a life full of various business ventures, hard work, hard work and hard work. Needless to say, my Mum has been right next to him helping him every step of the way.
So that's where it comes from. The want, the need of being more than just another person doing a 9-5 job and never being satisfied. By the way, where I come from, a 9-5 job is more like a 7-7 job. If you want to survive, you do the long hours or get a second job.
Back to me, though. As I said before, I am self-employed but, currently, working in an industry where I am more like a sub-contractor to other companies and if I start working with one on a project, it's not easy to just jump into another one for a day or two. When I was told yesterday that the work had dried up and they cannot give me anything to do, I knew that I was going to lose money.
Remember? Self-employed. Sure, There are things I like about it but one thing I don't is that if you don't go to work, you don't get paid. No boss but no paid holiday, either....
See why I'm angry?
And I'm not even angry at the people letting me down. I'm angry at myself for letting this happen.
I know all about Robert Kiyosaki's 'Cashflow Quadrant'. I love it! It makes sense. I moved into the 'S' quadrant naturally because of my personality and now it's time to move on. 'B' and 'I', here I come!
By the way, if you have no idea what I was talking about just then, please, do yourself a massive favour. Look it up, understand it, love it and live by it!
So I'm at home for a couple of days and decided to immerse myself into WA's Getting Started training modules. You see, I signed up as a Premium Member straight away because I could see the value I will get out of it as soon as I read a few blogs and looked around a bit on the site. However, I've been a member for almost a month now and I am only on Lesson 3 of the Getting Started course.
Why? Yep, you guessed it. Because of work. It might not be a job, I might be self-employed but I still work 12-15hours a day, 6 days a week. And I am not young anymore. And I am a woman. With no husband or children to look after yet. (Hopefully, one day soon.) Why alone still? I guess, because of work again. No time to meet anyone. No time to live my life. Isn't that just absolutely bonkers???
OK, rant over. The whole reason for sharing this with you is because there might be some other people out there who feel the same way and I'm thinking "Do you know what? I'm gonna change it all with online marketing!" I may be new to it, I may be right at the beginning of my journey but the internet is not going anywhere soon! Right?
I am using the unexpected (and unpaid) free time I have today, to sit in a coffee shop with my iPad and do a big chunk of the training here. To get started with building my online business so that I can sit in coffee shops and work from my iPad all the time!
And who knows? My future husband might sit at the next table one day...
I'm gonna round off this blog by saying that I cannot believe, I have actually written a blog! :-)) And with a click of a button (more like a light touch of the screen) in a minute, it will be published for all to see... Scary...
I'm not sure how much sense it made what I said here or whether my English was correct. I'm not sure, how many of you will come across it, will find it intriguing enough to start reading or read it to the end. What I'm sure of is that this blog is the first baby step (Oh, you have no idea how much relevance that little phrase has Keep reading my blogs here and you will find out soon.) of a future very successful online marketer. :-)
Just to let you know...I'm not angry anymore! I'm super excited instead!
Thank you for reading my first real blog!
Nika x
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Anger and resentments don't get us far. When we look under the anger at the real feelings that are there - we can generally "Surrender to the Solution." rather than living in the problem. Happy you aren't angry any more
Thank you for your comment. Yes, I've had first-hand experiences of how true that is. Nowadays, I do my best to get out of that feeling asap when it comes. Hence, writing the blog about it.
Yes and that really works. Seems when we talk about it, share it with someone, it loses its grip on us. Good stuff
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Anger is not by itself bad. Anger that blames others and takes no responsibility for there situation is bad.
But anger that causes you to take action to prevent this happening again is how we become successful!
Good Job Nika
Thank you for your comment! I couldn't agree more.