Dealing With the Day to Day
Today I'm going to get a bit personal, so please excuse me.
Many of you have read my profile, and know that I was an abuse victim. 16 years worth of it, in fact. Before I was 8 years old, I had been abused by 5 different family members, ranging from cousin to step-brother. For the longest time, I thought that was normal, and even after I knew it wasn't, it took a long time to break the cycle. I was 31 before I broke it.
All that to say that the "day to day" mundane for me, is what some would call impossible. I have PTSD, Anxiety, Major Depression, and Agoraphobia (fear of the outside world). Yet every day, I get up, take a handful of mood stabilizers and anxiety meds, and go to work.
I hate it. Every minute of it is torture, because I never know when the shortness of breath, tunnel vision, and extreme vertigo that go with a panic attack will hit. Every day I pray that I will get through the next minute, next hour, the rest of the day. God, just please let me get home before it hits! I never know when someone will look at me, say the wrong thing, touch me, and set off a flashback. It's hell. But it's my life.
That is why I chose WA. I don't just want something I can do from home. I need it. I'm too broken to function in normal society, but not broken enough to have no ambition for a better life.
I want my children to grow up better than I did, and have the things I didn't. Stability and security, love, things that many people take for granted. Those are my dreams. A lot of you have asked me what my monetary goals are, and I can't answer, because you can't attach monetary value to the things that I want.
I found WA at just the right time, because I was definitely at the end of my rope. The work that I do here, in the courses, on my website, and in the community, keep me tethered, and give me hope that tomorrow will be better. It has to be.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hRN8A053tn0
Until next time,
Nancy
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I am thrilled that WA is meeting hour needs. At the risk of being too bold, have you ever thought of testing a faith community of some kind. Often, there you will find broken people supporting each other.
I actually belong to a really great church, and I know that I would not have made it as far as I have without Jesus. I'm not that strong.
Nancy, this could be my daughter talking to me. She is in the same kind of place that you are and I have seen first hand how horrendous these conditions are. I am so happy that you have found WA and hope so much that it helps you to develop a business where you will feel safe. Feel free to PM me if you would ever like to chat :)
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Fantastic to see you at WA. This will keep you inspired and motivated to make your life's journeys a success. My wife was abused by her first husband. we have been together for 23 years now, and I enjoyed helping her and watching her life change for the better. You enjoy it here and wish you great success.
That is so awesome, that she has gotten through it all. I'm glad she has you for support.
Thanks, he was also an alcoholic. we have a great relationship and are best friends.
That's my relationship with my husband. I would not be where I am without him.
Fantastic.