I'm Scared!
"Well why then dear Watson? What on earth could be the reason for this absolute abomination? This is a crime to the community and to yourself - you should be ashamed of yourself!"
And indeed I am - very ashamed and painfully aware of the fact that I am indeed making slow progress, compared to others in this community...
But I'm still here, forging on, albeit slow.
Truth is, I'm scared sh#&less....
"Scared? Oh no!"
"Oh the horror, oh the shame!"
Yeah I'm scared - there it is, out in the open now for everyone to see...
"But what could you possible be scared off?"
Oh so many things...scared that I might make a fool of myself when trying to write a blog, for what in the world do I know that could possibly be of interest to anyone? English is not even my first language...
Scared that once again, after so many attempts at making a success of online marketing in the past, I would also not succeed this time around,
Scared that people would not deem my pages and posts fit for reading, for who am I after all to claim to be an authority at anything internet marketing related?
Scared to share my site on social platforms, fearing that my friends would judge me and ask among themselves, who the hell I think I am to pitch them with yet another pathetic attempt to make money online.
Scared that my being scared will eventually make me drop out of WA...
"Well let me tell you, if scared were stripes, you would have been two zebras by now!"
I guess so, but you know, something is different this time around...don't quite know what it is...
But it is that 'something' that eventually got me off my butt and write my first blog on the WA platform this morning. It is that 'something' that urges me to battle on and write my damn pages and posts and do the damn training as best I can, come what may...
It is that 'something' that keeps a flickering light of hope in the deepest part of my being alight...
Maybe that 'something' is the genuine people here at WA, the tireless friendly nudges and words of encouragement from ambassadors and newbies alike, maybe it's the sense that this time I'm not alone in this thing, maybe it's the sense that even if I don't do everything 100% correct the first time, it's not the end of the world - there are always people and training available in this awesome community to help me get on track again...
Maybe it's just me refusing to quit...I don't really know.
All I do know is that I am still here and that I have never progressed this far, or gained this much knowledge in any of the other bogus programs I've bought into in the past.
And I do know for a fact, that I am part of a winning program, a winning community and I salute all those who have come before me - those who overcame their fear, those who conquered their inner demons and can today stand up proudly and say: "I have made a success of my journey here at Wealthy Affiliate."
I salute you and genuinely hope to count myself among you, one day...
Take that China!
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You're not alone in this journey, I have the same feeling at first, too many questions to myself, all the four Ws and one H, but I keep on telling myself, If I will not try, how will I know and that helps me a bit.
Good on you! I've been scared too, and I'm sure I will be in the future but the more you take action on the things that scare you, the less scary they become.
Glad to hear you've got that 'something' going on this time. :)
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Fear can become a giant especially if we have been burned with other experiences on the internet. I myself get the rock gut feeling to this day but we all must keep pushing on.