Life happens while you're making other plans

Hello All,

My apologies for being absent from WA for quite some time. I have a lot of “stuff” going down at the moment, all family related, and as I have always done, I have to prioritize which means creating another life for myself beyond kids and family has to come a slow second.

I just wanted to briefly pop in and let you know why I have not been here for a while, in case you wondered. I am currently recovering from a bad month long flu and am still not 100% but have to get myself well enough to look after my father when he comes out of hospital.

As I speak, he is in Royal Prince Alfred hospital in Sydney having just had a double by pass and heart valve replacement 2 days ago. He is 76. He has a partially collapsed lung and an infection in it which will determine how long he remains in hospital. He was supposed to be coming home on the 8th July (his birthday) but with the lung problem and considering he also has chronic obstruction of the airway disease from chemicals inhaled in a factory he worked in when I was a child, it may take longer.

When he does finally come home, I will have to stay with him at his unit for at least a week maybe longer until his mobility returns, which means my family will have to somewhat fend for themselves, because I won't be at home! Now there’s a new concept! My father’s mobility is hindered a great deal by arthritis which runs in his side of the family and being winter in Oz, his and my own joints are seizing up in the cold.

At his place I have no internet access, but I do have a bunch of hypnosis, life coaching and NLP courses printed up that I can work on. I have passed my Law of Attraction practitioner’s exam and I am now writing the essay part of my NPL practitioner’s exam so I can finish the exam this week.

What started my absence months ago were mental health issues with my youngest son who turns 17 this year. He has been suffering from anxiety and anger issues for a long time which have affected his education, but now he has severe depression with suicidal overtones. He has always had self esteem issues because he wears hearing aids because he has moderate hearing loss from RH blood factor complications at birth. He almost died at birth. Then an uncaring, unfeeling, cold fish of a teacher whom he had in years 5 & 6 was the thing that pushed him over the edge mentally. She destroyed what little self worth he had left, he was bullied by her, and other kids, he put on weight, and has been on a downhill slide ever since. He has been seeing a psychologist for 2 years but to no avail, so I have arranged to have him seen by a psychiatrist as he may need medication to get him out of this depression seeing as nothing else has worked. I don’t know what else to do and this really hurts.

I am in tears when he says to me that he feels like he is at the bottom of a deep dark hole, and though he’s been thrown a rope, he just hasn’t the strength to try to pull himself out. It just breaks my heart after nearly losing him at birth. I can’t risk losing him now. He needs all the help he can get.

This is just the tip of the iceberg, two of my other children are facing health challenges also that I won’t go into now.

If I didn’t have all the distractions of family issues, I would be flying through my WA course and getting my website up.

I am not a prolific writer by any stretch of the imagination, but I can write, and my mother was a writer, so it’s in the genes. I have a bunch of half finished blogs waiting for a moment when I don’t have writer’s block or when I am just in the “zone” for writing and have a spare moment. Unfortunately like the planets in the heavens these conjunctions don’t line up very often! It also seems that in order to be a successful internet marketer or blogger, you have to be quite selfish with your time. Even though I intend to succeed, at this moment, I cannot give my undivided attention to my WA learning, writing and website creation, though I have tried. I envy those bloggers and marketers who have no other responsibilities so they CAN give all their time to their writing, but I don’t have that luxury. It seems my time has never really been my own as I look back, but that was my choice. Maybe that will go against me being successful online, only the future will tell. I decided 30 years ago that I would always put my family first though, and that still stands.

Thanks to Nathaniell for your constant support, and as soon as I can free up some time I will get back to you as regards my site re your 6 month message. In the meantime, I will most likely continue to be absent for a while. I will return though when I can.

Regardless, I will remain a member of WA and continue to pay my dues for when I do have some spare time, because this is still the most AWESOME place to learn!

Thanks guys and gals!

Lynette