Poooof - i really hit the wall here.

Man it's hard to write this, but I really smacked into a wall here..
Just want to vent this, get it off my chest and move on really....

I've been at this for a couple of weeks now, I mean really diving deep into it and putting all my spare time in, believing that finally i would get a break and maybe be able to pursuit my happiness... You know the feeling and the excitement right....

I was just googling around earlier, and came across some reviews of this place of not so - positive nature you know... Googleld some more and had to read it...

Allegedly former members who was talking about either how the AB-route was so saturated it was not even possible, or how we all had fell for the bait and was just naively part of getting others blinded by the light, and getting them to hook on as well....

Either that or the fact that if one was to go with ones own niece, how incredibly hard and time consuming it would be to earn any kind of income remotely close to compensate for the cost of getting there, not even mentioning the time required...

Coming back here to find some motivation and comfort, and of course i stumble across those "I finally made a buck after a year of grind" kind of posts that normally is motivation to me, but now it just threw me in even deeper.......

I also started my WA promotional site a couple of days ago since i was so thrilled by all of this, and i was really both enjoying writing it, and exited about running it. I went in there to get the positiveness flowing aging, but man, when going back there now, my own written words tastes foul...
I almost gets ashamed of myself and my biased preaching in there... I'm two weeks into this, and for gods sake, who am I to talk like an expert about this to anyone! Sitting there in my plane with my sunglasses looking all successful and hapy, and getting people to throw their hard earned money on the table in pursuit of their own happiness.... Really, I'm not sure i got the stomach for it....

I'm thinking of giving my niece site some time instead for now, but is it really worth it? Something your're passionate about right... Sure, but I also need the money.... And I'm not that good a writer in the first place.....

Shit, this was a bad trip down a shitty road. I really thought my faith was a lot stronger.....

Any advice guys?
I really need to shake this blues...