In Memorandum.

Sadly,

It is that time of the year. The event of my lost brothers birthday comes upon me soon. Passed on at only 36, I now am 7 years without him alongside me. These times are proving most difficult, and I feel keenly the lack of his advice and wisdom. Having traveled such a long road prior to him passing has left me with an empty place in my heart which I feel will never heal. This time is especially difficult as his birthday was when we celebrated our bond.

Additionally, I am currently at minus 9 days until the bank foreclose on the house as I still have no job and cant pay the mortgage. My computer has died, I am using public ones, and my phone has no credit so finding a job will now be exceedingly difficult. To top things off, NZ is in Level 2 lockdowns, so no one is hiring due to contact refusal laws.

My wife is under so much stress, our relationship has taken a severe downturn, and our beautiful baby girl is upset most of the time because mum is as well. I am using all of my knowledge to help, and hope for a positive outcome, however feel I have to prepare her for further worsening of our situation and know she will fully breakdown when we lose the home we spent so long fighting and sacrificing for.

Sadly, I may have to leave the crew here, as without access to computer capability I won't be able to keep up with the training.

I sincerely hope no one else ever finds themselves in this situation, it is quite the load to bow under.

Kindest regards

BK